If you really are feeling suicidal, then call a suicide hotline immediately!

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We can live beside the ocean
Leave the fire behind
Swim out past the breaker
Watch the world die

As far as wanting to kill yourself goes, none of us are trained professionals in dealing with such issues, but I have to ask, is it really worth it to end your own life over things such as friends being mean or a guy?

If your friends are being harsh, then maybe you need new friends.  Evaluate what they say to you and ask yourself if these people are really your friends.  Or talk to them about how they sometimes say things that are hurtful.  If they respond by saying they didn't realize they're hurting you, than maybe they're worth keeping.  Just talk to them, let them know you're hurting.

I don't really know how I can advise you further, but I wish you luck for the future.  All I can say is that whenever you feel you have suicidal urger.  The number for the National Suicide Hotline is at the top of your post for whenever you need it.

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I was a mod once
It was epic

Now I'm taking the Christian at off, Honestly dude, if you are feeling that way about yourself you need to talk to someone so that you can find out why you feel this way.  I understand why the bible says you are being selfish if you kill yourself, because you aren't thinking about your family, your friend, people who care about you. You don't love or care about them enough to want to get better.  And I get that, I can understand why it says that.   What is it that you have questions about, what is so horrible in your life that you would want to go to this extreme?  If you find the answers to THOSE questions, you can begin to change things so that you aren't in such a horrible state.  

If you need to talk PM me, If you have God questions, you can PM me as well.


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I need to run away to find out who I am.
I need to stay and face what I've become.

Not that I condone the action of suicide, I am certainly not condemning the action by comparing it to unpardonable offenses.  Anyone who says that it is honestly isn't being true to scripture besides personal acceptance and adherence to extra-Biblical pressures.

No, suicide is not an action where one is automatically condemned to Hell neither directly or indirectly apart from extra-Biblical sources.

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"How incitful of you, dwarf. Though I can't speak for fenrir,
I beleive that he too has a certain degree of sarcasm
and humor in his posts." - Prince o palities