it was so hard but i spoke face to face with my mentor today about everything with my brother! and it was the hardest thing i have ever done. i bit my thumb so hard it bled. i felt physicly sick before i went. she told me i did so well speaking to her , she said the hardest part is over. She has refered me to an NSPCC counsellor. what i want to know is if i get an NSPCC counsellor . wud mum have to no anything? i don't want mum to know about the abuse that happened all them years ago! i dont want to hurt no body.
i feel proud for telling my mentor everything but like she tryed to help me when this lad at a party raped me but it dident work. i think a counsellor would be so much better no offence to my mentor like cuz i think shees mint =]
omg i just cant believe how hard this day has been. it didnt help that i had to go to french for the last 15 minutes cuz my mentor had a meeting to go to and so i cryed all the way through and people wouldent leave me alone. all i wanted was space and my BEST FRIEND said to me "do you think it was wise to tell her all this? look what has happened! you are getting a counsellor" SOME FUKIN BEST FRIEND SHE IS! shees been a tit all week!

anyway enough ranting. will tell you more later! mums walked in.