I just started college, and I told everyone how much I'm not going to get jealous over girls because of how much money I'd be making from work and Financial Aid refund checks. Usually, when I'm jealous I'm demonically pissed off as though I want to kill someone. I try listening to something hard like Slipknot, Slayer, Mudvayne, and even Marilyn Manson couldn't help me. So, when I got home, I went to the bathroom and cried and realized that for the first time in years, I'm sad because I'm jealous. It's like I had a sudden change since high school graduation. I can't get over it, and I feel as though I won't be the cheerful and hardcore person I used to be. Now I'm scared because I think I might change into a different person.

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I LOVE ASIANS!!!