I have been depressed for months and i don't think i can take it anymore I HATE MYSELF i am a stupid useless piece of **** everything seems hopeless.
In social situations i can't speak my throat becomes really tight and my heart feels like it is going break through my ribs, get really hot..... AAAHHHH!!
i am a self harmer but i am trying to quit
I have this stupid thing before i go to bed in this exact order otherwise i freak ot get panicy and can;t concentrate until i have done it until i feel happy. I have to eat in a certain way, get dressed in a set way. count my steps, make toast in a set way........
I feel like i am crazy!!
my family continues to insult and bully me which makes me feel worse,
Why can't i be normal.. well whatever normal is
just needed a rant!