I can so see myself getting gaybashed at some point this week.. I can just tell it's gonna happen. And it's his fucking fault. None of this would have happened if he hadn't decided to "do what's best for me" and go around telling everyone about my sexuality, even though it's CLEARLY going to result in so many bad things happening to me.

And now he's kicking off on me, saying that "if I'm not open about our relationship then clearly I don't love him". Sure, go ahead, make me feel guilty. To be honest, he's probably right. I probably am too selfish and paranoid, and not caring enough to come out for him.  

I try to love him enough to come out, but the fear of me being ridiculed, humiliated, outcast and physically abused for the next two years does NOT appeal to me, and I just don't think it's worth me coming out to them when we could just as easily keep our relationship a fucking secret. Then I wouldn't have to put up with all this shit.

Christ.  

Post edited at 8:43 am on Nov. 10, 2008 by Chasey

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Mainly because it's not your problem. You're happy, right? That's all that matters. Fuck these haters. Plus, if you come out and say 'look, this is who I am' people are more likely to respect you and get used to it.

However, it's not fair for your boyfriend to tell everyone for you. Whatever you choose, is your choice, not his. He needs to respect your choice.

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theres very few guys like you. people should be happy for you.

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You can say I told you so...If you wanted me to go.
We could fight it to the end...I just wanna hold your hand..MCR. SAVED. MY. LIFE.

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aww thats not good. does he not realise the situation ur in at school? but then again hes probs just coming to see u coz he loves u

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Yeahh he knows.. I guess I shouldn't be so hard on him, but I'm just scared of getting beat up.

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