Yes, I am depressed. And I have been thinking about this a lot. I know I'm not the only one who has felt like this, so if anyone is out there that would like to talk I would appreciate it. I'm not saying I'm going to kill myself, I just think about it a lot. I stay up at night just wondering how everyone is going to react when they find my dead body, I think about what to leave them. I make up poems off the top of my head explaining myself to the people I care about. I know people who would care if I died, but why can't they care about me now while I'm still here?
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From someone who has had 4 attempts in his life, that's how it always starts, with notes and poems and contemplating what their reactions would be. Please don't, tell them how you feel now before you end up going too far.
------- I'm not wasted potential, you're just not worth my time. The impossibility of perfection will tear me apart. There's only so much you can do. The Broken.
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I do the same exact thing. To the point where I've left notes around my room with passwords and everything for people to be able to get into my computer, and everything on here; that way when they question "why would she?" they can read my little word pad documents when I vent. Just message me if you ever need anything, I'm really good at helping everyone but me.
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Although you say now you only think about it, that can escalate to you planning it out and then possibly attempting it. I would suggest telling your parents how you feel, if you dont feel comfortable with that tell an adult that you trust; a preacher, school counselor, peer counselor or even call 1-800-SUICIDE that way it can be anonymous.
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