But what's the worst? Of all of this? Why should I feel this way? I feel like falling to the floor. It's the end of the road. I've just had so many raw deals.

I'm a teen pregnancy.
My Dad hates me.
I don't get along with my family.
We moved away from the area I felt most at home, away from all my relations.
I have fuck all friends.
The one girl I ever felt something for just wouldn't have anything to do with me because she's 4 years older than me.
I didn't get the course I wanted in University and never will because I'll never be able to afford it.
I've had a few girlfriends, but I've never liked them and no one has been that bothered about me ever.

You know, and what's turned it round for me and knocked everything into perspective is that girl I tried to call. I don't think she rejected me, and even if she did it doesn't matter. It's just how everything is always so hard. I mean in a million to one chance I see her today and just as I'm about to go over a guy in a suit enters the scene. The fact that I've got a wrong number.

I'm just so sick of it. I think its curtain call.

So whats the worst....of all of this?


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Punctured bicycle on a hillside, desolate,
Could nature make a man of me yet?

Post edited at 7:05 am on Nov. 14, 2008 by Bearsy

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click and please click
^use head phones

Tell me, my friend, how did you feel when you were sweating, trying desperately to name this or that part of a standard issue rifle - alongside all of your comrades? How do you feel about conquering those challenges now?

Things may be bad, and I'm not trying to draw away from that, but you sounds like you're letting it get to you. Don't. You know as well as I that this is another one of life's mysteries that has presented itself to you for you to solve. I have every faith in you!

You can focus all day on the things that need fixing, but you know that these are things which are solvable, or at least, you are able to accommodate for certain shortcomings. Don't get tired of solving, fixing and making things better. You owe it to yourself to be all that you can be, (and I know you can,) even when motivation to fix and solve is an issue as well.

Message me as well, if you'd like. I don't like the idea of you giving up on things. Your life is worth fighting for, and I know you're tough enough to play it out...and win!

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Also available in sober.

Seriously.

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i think you're the same as me, we see things they'll never see