This really the straw that break the camel back and I know it. Because without hesitation I told them I was done and finished with them. Now I am just sick and tired of life really. I could careless what happens to me now. Tonight was the straw that broke the camel back and I knew this was gonna happen, I knew by this friday I would finally get my answer that make me just wanna stop it all.

I'm at the lowest point ever in my life now. What scary is that I don't care no more. I'm not worried,stressed, or horribly sad. Just fatigued from the games and let downs over the years. It's taken so much from me that I can never have a normal life ever. Thanks a lot Stephanie.

Well I am done venting, no this isn't my cry for help I know what I wanna do. I just have to say this out now because if I don't I'll be crying and tearing for keeping it inside and trust me. Crying and tearing is just gonna make me feel worse. Typing this out on here just make it easier to release pain.

So scary about how calm I am even with all the above and how I am feeling now.