At first I thought everything was beautiful and cool or whatever like when you normally trip on a hallucinogenic and look around at everything moving, but then it turned really gross because my thoughts had started getting stuck in the transcendental thought mode of acid. I couldn't stop thinking of human beings as these really gross biological growths. Almost what human beings might think typically of an alien race, but sadly I was stuck applying it to what I and all of us are.

Or even to put it more in perspective imagine how sober human beings TRY to be transcendental in looking at us in relation to just larger more intelligent monkeys, and then get even more detatched from what "monkeys" and all of that shit is. I was so deep into having no identity with who I am in reality that I didn't even imagine the idea human beings have that defines the word "creature" would apply to life because it seemed to orderly, and reality is all just an ordered chaos. We are just a really nasty biological growth that inevitably continuously made itself more efficient to living until it made a conciousness, and this conciousness tethered us unique set of biological growths to a certain way of percieving the world. Being such bastard creations of reality that we are, having to be the only things sprung out of it cursed with an amount of conciousness and abstract thought, we created this whole crazy little society.

And this society is CRAZY. The whole biological growth society of Earth is fucking WIERD. We are the wierdest shits in existence, literally. GROWTHS seemed the best word, because we literally sprung out of chemical soups that turned into biological goo of what we call single celled organisms, but we are by far the strangest ones on the planet. There are probably many unique biological growths in the universe, as well as the others on planet Earth that we would be familiar with, and yet only a minority of these actually have the ability and the curse to look around and be able to say "I am a human being, and this is the universe and the environment I come from".

These growths apply a length of attractiveness to the other growths. We'd all call it being sexy just talking normally, but once looked through your LSD screen you see a bunch of these THINGS that piss and shit and burp and gurgle and fuck out of holes that are all similarly used for shitting and pissing and gurgling, to metaphorically just shit out, or I guess you could just say SPAWN another new biological growth. Out of the necessitites of their conciousness and just being able to stand surviving with themselves these growths would and of course DO look at the whole world in relation to what is THEM (in our case, we look at everything in relation to humans default. You can't help it. God is originally a man in some white robe because what else is God going to be? Certainly hes not going to be an incomprhensible creature/thing because we can't comprehend that, because everything is inevitably human).

So at the end of my trip I was basically transforming every facet of our society back into this basic mold. I wasn't a human being looking at human beings, but more I was a conciousness suspended in reality having the chance to observe what total incomprhensible things reality had wrought.

And now since I am sober again all of this has compeltely turned me off. I swear it's enough to make me feel like I will willingly avoid sex for like, a week atleast. It also made me so much more appreciate the even strangest of all these things, the abstract thought creations of the biological growths. Music was incredibly interesting to me, I was fascinated by the concept of what music is and what it does to us. I was fascinated by all art, which was the point where I understood the koo-koo Timothy Leary when he said "We saw ourselves as anthropologists from the twenty-first century inhabiting a time module set somewhere in the dark ages of the 1960s. On this space colony we were attempting to create a new paganism and a new dedication to life as art" thats fascinating, because while I fell Timothy Leary is really fucking goofy and othertimes just insane that was exactly what I drew from my trip. The most fascinating thing about the only life we are aware of is it's abstract creations of thought, or "art", and I felt that besides just existing this "art" was the most interesting thing we have ever conjured. Art is the utterly strange and wierd musings of a smelly biological growth that basically is the bastard child of reality, having actually just been spawned from all of the things that move and crunch what we percieve as the "universe".

I remember watching something on the LHC* on TV, and hearing this physicist talk about his fucked up physics to an audience that honestly didn't understand. I feel like I understand PHYSICS more fully now, or atleast advanced physics. I used to think of things ground in this mold of a universe we all have, but now that I see things in this new simple reality, which is far funkier and strange, I can actually comprehend the crazy motherfucking physics that poor genius physicist was trying to get Joe Six Pack to comprehend. Not to say LSD will help you with physics, I just realized the perfect out of touch way to look at reality.

And that was my night.

Post edited at 1:08 pm on Oct. 11, 2008 by Acid World

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