i am standing on the edge of my school roof arms spread out wide feeling the air go passing by, then i am falling and falling and it feels so good

i have a little adreniline rush when i think of this, i image how good it would feel.

yesterday i went through all the possible ways of killing myself, finding the flaws in them and settled on taking loads of sleepin pills and stuff in the bath or jumping of something really really really high to be really sure i would die.

the thing is i don't want to die, i wouldn't have the guts to kill myself, i don't think i am suicidal but the thoughts keep comming....

sorry just had to let all of this out  

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why dont you just cut yourself or something works for my friends, i myself dont cut

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i do cut!

Post edited at 1:04 pm on Oct. 11, 2008 by Symphony of screams

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why dont you just cut yourself or something works for my friends, i myself dont cut

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You're an idiot.

Ok Symphony of screams this may sound strange but it is normal to think occasionally about suicide. It becomes a problem when you start to seriously concider it. However i would recommend going to talk to someone like a school counsillor to put your mind at rest. Message me if you'd like to talk further.

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I want to astonish Paris with an apple

This is your life and it is up to you how you want to respond to these emotions but think about those who would be hurt by a choice you made. If you kill yourself the ones who love you will be hurt by your choice.

It could be just a temporary thing but don't let it take too much of your time. You must consider the possibility that you may be suicidal. Consider the facts. Look up suicidal and depression on Google and read through the information. That's if you are afraid of what your friends would think.  


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