I can't be angry because she probably don't know what she doing hurting me. yeah she goy a bf and she love hanging with him cuz he has a son and she loves kids, that and da fact she likes sex which I can't give living a hour away. I am hurting bad because she not being supportive rigtht now im habing surgery in the morning and she not giving me any artention. why did god have to make her bi polar.

When a few days ago she would want to cook lunch for me and would want me to stay and eat breakfast with her before going home. Before I left to drive home me and her sat in my car talking and making each other smile. She would smile when I look her deep into her eyes. She would talk about what would things be like in 10 years if me and her were still alive. Now I umderstand what they mean when they talk about how bi polar affects the people around them. I've put up with years of this mental illness and its been hell but I can't hold it agaisn't her because I have cf and diabetes and she ain't give up on me because of it. *SIGH* life can be screwed up sometimes..