I've been shut in my room for most of the evening, and it feels good.  Comfortable.

I want to drink.  I had about 4 beers last night with my brother just for the hell of it.  I wanted to have some more tonight, but I stopped myself... feels a little too alcoholic.

I eat a lot at night, and I haven't worked out in weeks.

I'm on an academic scholarship, but I'm digging myself a hole.  I have a C in physics and probably a C in my history class too.  The satan doll on my shoulder is telling me that life would be easier if I just gave up and went home.

Is this what depression feels like?
...and how the fuck do I pull myself up?

Post edited at 9:47 pm on Sep. 29, 2008 by mnight

maybe see if you can see a coucellour, talk to your rother or someone else you trust about your problems, just think about good stuff, what you are good at each day

try to get ontop of your school work, once you suceed in something you will star to feel a bit better, try not to withdraw yourself from anyone you can trust to talk to.

Post edited at 9:48 pm on Sep. 29, 2008 by shutter bugs

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yes thats how it feels
and there is no hope
trust me im there

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me too. "/

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thats some dank shit!

In a similar vein... start excersizing! Exerting yourself releases endorphins, which make you feel BETTER! Drink lots of water and keep your blood sugar up... that way you won't feel washed out or fatigued. Everything we do has an effect on our bodys chemistry, it effects the way we feel.

The scholarship, if anything should be your motivation to push even harder and get back to the right track. Don't worry! It's not even midterms yet. There's still plenty of time to get the work done.

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