I haven't cut in a few months, three, I think. It's not like I want to go back to that, but I kind of do. It's like I don't know who I am with out this. Same with not eating. I'm finally eating healthy and for some reason I want to go back to that.
My biggest problem is not knowing completely who I am with out it. It feels like part of my identity and I know that's not normal.
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FuzzyBearJr
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well its part of ur style but just tell urself thts the old u.. and stay away from cutting and not eating and tell urself its for the best..
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sadnessness
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Do you feel detatched? If yes, that is a common sign of depression caused by chemical and hormone imbalances within the brain.
Id suggest seeing a counsellor or a doctor or talking to a trusted adult. Harming yourself never actually fixes the problem, it just gives a temporary relief, and sometimes not even that (i used to feel guilty and weak about 10seconds after i cut so it never helped me at all in the end, but i still got stuck in the cycle). Get yourself some help, and try to find something in your life to distract you whilst the problems are being dealt with, like a sport or an interest or friends or something like that.
------- dont wonder why im not smiling, wonder why you are.
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QuantumBlaze
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I don't even know how you cutters do it.
I'm too much of a pussy to cut myself so willingly.
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sadnessness
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Quote: from QuantumBlaze at 9:48 pm on Nov. 4, 2008
I don't even know how you cutters do it.
I'm too much of a pussy to cut myself so willingly.
i'm not sure how i did it myself to be honest. I remember sitting there in an R.E lesson with a penknife just slitting my hand open further and further without feeling anything. Thinking of it now i wonder two things: 1) how come my teacher didnt notice 2) how the hell did i do it??
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QuantumBlaze
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Quote: from sadnessness at 5:00 pm on Nov. 4, 2008
Quote: from QuantumBlaze at 9:48 pm on Nov. 4, 2008
I don't even know how you cutters do it.
I'm too much of a pussy to cut myself so willingly.
i'm not sure how i did it myself to be honest. I remember sitting there in an R.E lesson with a penknife just slitting my hand open further and further without feeling anything. Thinking of it now i wonder two things: 1) how come my teacher didnt notice 2) how the hell did i do it??
My God...
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I don't even know how you cutters do it. 
