Whenever i was down i always used to write poems about how i was feeling but recentley its just been a complete blank. I can't write it down anymore and im scared that if i lose that i'll just fall apart. I used to find that music helped but its slowly just becoming background noise and thats scary because i love music so much. Couple of weeks back for some unknown reason i was really down. I came home from school and cried my eyes out whilst shaking like hell and then i just sat there...in silence...thinking about nothing, for the rest of the day. I think that was when my mum realised something was wrong but the weird thing is, the day after, im always back to my normal self. I just dont want that kind of thing to happen again, cos that was really scary and i can't help but feel it will if i can't find an outlet for all this shit :(