we were kinda together for months and she told me she only wanted to be with me, she was committed to me, i was the only guy she had, etc.

then she told me she had another guy, and she chose him over me. i begged her to reconsider and i told her that i wanted her all for myself. finally, she implied that she wouldn't date him and we kept up our relationship.

but she also kept up her relationship with that guy, and she got physical with him. i had no idea, and during that time, she asked if she could be my girlfriend, so i tried to be cute by asking her formally and she said yes. apparently she never fucked the other guy but she was considering it (and wanted to do it) even after we made our relationship official.

i finally found out and talked to her about it. she told me that she regretted it and that she had stopped talking to the other guy and that i was enough for her. i believed her and gave her another chance.

so we were good for a few months, but then she found another guy and soon she liked him just as much as me. she lied about having a crush on him at first, but then she told me the truth and a few days later asked for a break. i told her she could have it as long as she didn't do do anything with any other guy. two weeks later, she told me i wasn't enough for her and we broke up.

i've gotten really depressed without her because i don't care about anything but her. i told her about it, and she told me she would get back with me because her feelings for the other guy had gone away and because she cared about me.

i'm happy about that, but i feel like shit from how easy it has been for her to pick other guys over me when she tells me she loves me. i asked her to do something for me to show me that she is committed to me, but the only thing she is willing to do is tell me that she is committed to me. which is what she told me before both times that she acted on her feelings for another guy.

i told her that it stressed me out to think about her and other guys, and she said "well I know that i'm not fucking around with other guys so you can go ahead and be a crazy little person"

verdict?