now i'm starting to get suicidal thoughts which i haven't had for a while, and i just arrghh i don't want to feel like this but i can't stop.
my ex boyfriend keeps badgering me by email and i just want him to leave me alone i don't want to hear him anymore but i can't say that to him that's just so rude!

i have cravings to do drugs, smoke and drink, which i can handle, but now i'm getting cravings to physically hurt myself, plus suicidal thoughts
it's so damn hard to handle alone

i'm not looking for any help.. i just needed to let it out.
thanks if you read this..

Those thoughts are pretty normal when you are a teenager. It kinda comes and goes with all of the stuff we have to deal with as teenagers, your hormones are raging, thoughts are racing, and life just sucks.

My advice, just DON'T DO ANYTHING STUPID. i.e. kill yourself. That should be a no brainer. Other than that, you have to work through it. Honestly this website, friends and (kind of) family has helped me in situations of high stress.

Venting like this helps too. I'm sure you already know that.

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