This has given me some sort of depression, but that's not my issue right now.

I think I have a little bit of OCD, in the "task repeating" way. I sometimes repeat steps or touch an object several times and if I don't do it I get really nervous and I don't know how to explain it.

Well, lately, I've found out I also obsess over thoughts. This summer I got really depressed because I got obsessed with death and I was really scared of it.

The other day, in class, a (really ugly by the way) guy, who is a loner, had to do an exercise on the blackboard. And I suddenly started pitying him and I started thinking "I don't like him, get the fuck out of my head" or something like that, and I was fighting myself because I don't LIKE that guy but I still couldn't get him out. I had an anxiety attack from the "fighting myself".

I repeat, I don't LIKE this guy, but I have fear of thinking of him. I just don't want to. He comes to my mind sometimes and I can't get it out.

I class I can't even concentrate sometimes, the thought of him even disgusts me. And at the same time it makes me feel guilty for dissing him that way but I don't want to go insane.

How could I get him out of my head? Has anyone had a problem like this before? Do you think I could have OCD? :/

Post edited at 11:02 am on Jan. 20, 2009 by Anonymous