Okay middle school wasn't my best years, i was a bad kid. You know, often somehow stumbling into a few skirmishes fight (but not a fight fight to get me suspended more of efending myself because we had some ghetto kids and i guess they saw me as prey. even tho i didnt come off that way i could defend myself lightly.) Lazy in school work and hanging out with the wrong crowd but knowing a few good people.

So yeah about when 7th grade came midway i met this girl through my friend. She was okay, and well i guess i just needed someone to be kind to me and talk, in a way she kinda reshaped me. For simplicity lets call her Person A. Our friendship was cool infact this was kind of the turning point for me, i started talking to more people and in turn gaining more friends because i was shy.  

Well 8th grade comes on through, my status at school is a lot better, having a year and many months of dedication of hardwork on judo, i can / have defended myself and often dropping a few people in the process, even if it was just a little "mini wrestling rumble" and nothing too serious. My grades improved and i was on the right track, and my friend? she was the same but then there came this new kid. He later becomes my bestfriend also but ironically, he may have cause the friendships other people of Person A to end but at the same this guy (lets call him Person B) was really cool. Same interest,liked to hangout, but he was lazy and a videogame junky etc. The 3 of us became bestfriends... or so it would seem.

Entering highschool 9th grade, Person A & B friendship kinda grew. He even walks home the same way but I guess it was right there when i saw the inevitable happening as they became more of bestfriend, i was slowly getting pushed out of the circle... which if you look at some of the evidence, was why some of the problems started was because of Person B. I didnt wanna believe it, but reality was just coming towards me. He never even went out with her too, probably because he was more in the friendzone than i was lol.

As time went on, i started to feel distant, sure i had other friends thanks to Person A'x experience i had with her but still i didnt wanna let her go. In a way, she kinda takes on the personality of Person B. She was inteligence, then she starts becoming a bit rebellious, skipping school and often playing with her friends now.

I mean she pretty much has a boy that will do ANYTHING she wants. Not saying that I wouldn't but by ANYTHING i mean this guy, Person B, will even make a fool outta himself, let her put makeup on him, etc.

As those 2 started developing a better relationship, i just did what i could do and just focus on my schoolwork and spending time with my other friends. I even made a few new stronger relationship with my otherfriend and of course new "bestfriend".  

As sophomore year passes thru and it is now the start of Junior Year, i find myself in a bit of a slump. Sure I made new friends and Person A & B still like me but we're just... not as closed as before. I've had many success as well in and outside of school. Landed myself a job for awhile, going to overseas, and even top 10 of my class, but nothing fills the void, you know?

Now those 2 and along with a bunch of other idiots get drunk practically almost every weekend. They hardly invite me to places and events, and i dont want to drink to "fit in". Even so if they do call me they're either A)At the damn place telling me how fun it is or B) -- well i cant think of a B but you get the idea tho right?

In a way its a love hate relationship i got with Person B and i look down on Person A on changing. Shes really pretty and a good personality but shes taking her "friends" for granted, and she knows nobody cant stay mad at her because they eventually come back, which is true. Plus she has a dog, which is "Person B" i like to call and a boyfriend, thats not even Person B. and hardly tells me stuff im barely in the loophole and it makes me angry that something like this is getting through to someone like me.

TLDR: So in the end, I ask, how do you let go of someone that made sorta of a impact in your life?  She still treats me nice but we hardly talk and its just not the same. Any advice? words of encouragement? wisdom?

and thank you if you actually read this all the way through.

Post edited at 12:36 am on Nov. 2, 2008 by DaffySpaffy

that asks the question and advice

lol.