Well I dont know where to start. I feel reall shitty right now. I really thought I could've led a strong positive life. Try to see each and every negative or things that bothered me differently. But all my friends are falling apart. And I just dont have that drive anymore.
I felt a sense of jealousy recently.. and I just flipped. I got angry I got jealous.. Then I got angry Im being so negative.. And Im actually just pissed that Im actually making a topic in the serious forum... where I myself actually used my positive outlook and perspective to people who needed a serious answer ... usually depression.. Now its like Im being like a hypocritical.. like .. I dont actually believe Im falling. and Im angry so much that Im denying the fact I am. But I know I am.. So Im getting help.
songs are like my only motivation. they tell me not to give up with all the negativeity around me. dont mind it. etc.

but Other than that, it all seems ..

hopeless..

I dont know.. can anybody help me out with this one?
Im really trying to realize something.. but I just cant find it.. and every second and minute I waste not finding it.. Im just closer in giving up..


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