I told my mother I think I need counselling... possibly even medicine. She said she would make me an appointment, she has been saying this since last year and has never done a thing. I just feel so hopeless and once the sun goes down, it gets even worse. Waking up is just as bad, I get up at 8am, but I mean... I don't have anything to do day after day. None of my friends live around here and ugh I just want to feel...normal.

I am just so...tired.    

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First of all, I gotta say, everybody feels like this at one point in their life. So you just started getting irritated not so long ago? Don't feel hopeless, xsharpi.  
I know it might sound pretty lame but mostly it's up to you. Like the fact that your mom is procrastinating with the appointment you need. Well what if you told her about the things that are going on that are making you feel tired?  
It seems to me like your boyfriend forgave you for the accident, and that he cares about you enough to stay with you. So that would be a good reason to feel good around him.  
If it's true that you don't have enough real life friends, then, how is joining some local activities for you? I wish I could recommend you some activities but that's up to you to decide, and you're still in school, and I can tell that you're a good person.  
Speaking of school, it's so good that you're working hard that you have the opportunity to be something that will bring you prosperity, keep the good work up and think positive about it... that will help you.  
Why do you feel hopeless once the sun goes down? Does it look depressing? It might be a good idea if you wrote down everything that bothers you and then get rid of it.  
I know what it's like to feel bad, and if you ever need anything, my inbox is always open, I'm 'Watch this'. I believe you can overcome this and I wish you the best of luck! :)

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-BeCool90

Post edited at 9:05 pm on Nov. 3, 2008 by greatescape

Thanks :>

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