Well first off I'm a foster child. I was removed from my biological home about 2 years ago on charges of abuse, dependency, and neglect. Well before then my mom had me thrown in jail because in her eyes there was no other way to get me out of her house. She claimed that I hit her. And on countless occasions me and my friend have heard both my parents confess to filing a false report and lieing to "teach me a lesson". But I got charged and stuck with a fine of $560.00 and 24 hours of community service.  Well I've been to 2 group homes. And recently I've run away from the last one. I'm still currently a run away. The thing is I have no way to pay the money and if I don't im facing 30 days in jail. I called my real mother last night and she said she would pay it if I would come home. The thing is I don't know if I'm ready for that. And I'm scared because if I go there I'll be trapped til im 18. Which isnt far off, its November 19th. But still to me thats forever. I wont be able to have contact with the people I love most. My foster parents. But im torn because I dont want to go to jail.

Should I suck it up and go back? Or find a way to do this on my own?

I'm so lost. I don't know what to do...

Thanks to everyone who actually read this I'm sorry this is so long I left out alot so it wouldn't be so long.

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