She's always been the pretty, socially normal one, and I have always been the quiet, smart one. It just freaks me out because I'm so scared that I won't get in anywhere very good, and if she does get into a place like Duke, then I'd feel like such a failure next to her (we were both born in the same month in the same year, are attached at the hip even though we live in different states, etc.).
I feel awful that I don't want her to get in. She does act kind of stuck-up as of late, though; like, she purposely flaunts the fact that she is pretty, goes to a co-ed school (I go to an all girls school) and has a life. She'll be like, "Oh God they smell like beer. I know that smell. I hooked up with a drunk guy once, did I ever tell you about that?" and try to act like she has to mentor me on being social and having a life, while I just view her as kind of fake.
Again, I feel awful. I want to want her to get in. I am not applying there, but I am applying to an Ivy. Gaaahh.
Post edited at 6:09 pm on Oct. 25, 2008 by The Sarah
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