I can see that this is really a tough situation for you to be in right now.  I am really sorry that you are feeling this way.  Just remember that you're never alone as there are always people, including myself, who really care about you and want to help in any way that they can.

It is completely normal to feel the way you're feeling.  Long-distance relationships can be *really* tough and unfortunately, not many are successful.  It's really good that you guys are managing to make it work while being engaged!  You both should be very proud of yourselves for that.  However, I see that you aren't completely content with the present situation.

It's completely normal to feel this way.  Many people who are in relationships feel this way at one point or another.  Therefore, there's really nothing wrong with the way you're feeling.  You will not considered selfish if you talk to him about this.  From what you wrote, I can see that it's *he* who is being the selfish one.

I mean, you say he's not there for you when he needs you?  He should be there for you all of the times that he can because he is your fiance.  I mean, you guys are engaged to be married.  Does he not realise the importance of being engaged?  I don't know if he really does, to be honest.  It seems like he is a little immature and it's no wonder why you feel hurt.

Have you tried talking to him about it?  You should be open and honest about your feelings regarding this situation.  No one deserves to be treated this way - especially from their fiance.  It's not right and you don't deserve it.  You need to stand up for yourself.  Don't think you're being selfish because you're not.  Just don't say it with a mean or harsh tone and you cannot be accused of being selfish.

Tell him exactly what's on your mind and how you feel about the situation.  Then, give him the opportunity to do the same.  Communication is key in every relationship.  Without communication in a relationship, the relationship is less likely to be a successful one.  So, I would really advise you to talk to him about it.

I hope I helped.  If you ever need anything at all or feel the need to discuss this further, don't hesitate to message me any time as my inbox is always open.

Good luck and I hope everything works out for you.

DYL

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