Adding Reply Archived Topic: It will not be bumped to the top of the forum. Topic i hadn't cut in a week. fucked that up. Membername   Not a member? Sign Up Free (takes 20 seconds) Password   Forgotten your password? Post Font: Verdana Arial Black Georgia Comic Sans Impact   Size: Tiny Normal Big Huge   Color: Default Dark Red Red Orange Brown Green Olive Cyan Blue Dark Blue Indigo Black [ Check Spelling ] [ Post Preview ] [ LiveTags ] FAQ Keyword Search: Post Options Favorites Manager Notify me of new replies to this topic by email Notify me of new replies to this topic by private message Original Post well well well Posted at 7:32 pm on Sep. 12, 2008 i don't cut my wrists. they're too obvious. i cut my hips. i know, that sounds stupid. but it always helped me. but I HATED DOING IT. and without telling anyone at all that i'd been doing it for months, i stopped. it was hard. i stopped for a whole week. and i was so proud. it was a week yesterday. what did i do today? cut. but the blood scared me so much this time... this is more ashamed than i've ever been.

Replies Seanee Posted at 11:46 am on Sep. 14, 2008 First I would like to congratulate you on your success in not cutting for that time period. I know that it may have been very difficult but you pulled through without cutting which is great. If possible you could look back on that week and see what it was that kept you from cutting and let that help you in future when you have the urge to cut. If you haven't seen a professional about your cutting I think that now would be a great time to see one. You need to allow others to be able to help you, I know that it may be extremely difficult for you to admit such a thing to someone else but it is something that you may need to do so that someone can be able to help your though this time of need. For the time being, whenever you have an urge to self harm, try getting a book or something and write down exactly how you feel, if you want you can express your feelings in a story or even a poem or a song, you could also have an online journal for this stuff. This usually helps. XxanywherebutherexX Posted at 5:41 pm on Sep. 13, 2008 Quote: from 420Mike at 7:37 pm on Sep. 12, 2008 Are you people fucking kidding me? How can you seriously get addicted to cutting.... WHAT THE FUCK its easy       im clean for a month but i always want to but my bf and parents made me stop LittleBombs Posted at 8:10 pm on Sep. 12, 2008 Quote: from 420Mike at 7:57 pm on Sep. 12, 2008 Quote: from Just Waiting Here at 10:55 pm on Sep. 12, 2008 Quote: from 420Mike at 7:50 pm on Sep. 12, 2008 Quote: from LittleBombs at 10:47 pm on Sep. 12, 2008 Quote: from 420Mike at 7:37 pm on Sep. 12, 2008 Are you people fucking kidding me? How can you seriously get addicted to cutting.... WHAT THE FUCK       Well how do people get addicted to alcohol? Or drugs, or a certain sport...or anything for that matter? They do it cause it helps them, even for a while. It's relaxes them and makes them feel calm.       Don't be so quick to judge.   Yeah but those feel good. Don't give me some bullshit like "masking pain with pain gives me relief". I say fuck that.    Using you reasoning to determine why alcohol and drug addiction is justified... let's just say.  "Cutting feels good", and by your own logic, that should be enough to determine why people do it. Thats not my only "logic".... But clearly they are more enjoyable from my experiences cutting myself on shit at various points in my life, compared to when i'm high and drunk. It doesn't even take "logic" to realize making yourself bleed feels better than being intoxicated. See I don't drink alcohol, have never smoked or tried drugs. I just don't get how those make anyone feel good. And besides, with those you are still harming yourself. Even more so than cutting. Just Waiting Here Posted at 8:03 pm on Sep. 12, 2008 Quote: from 420Mike at 7:57 pm on Sep. 12, 2008 Thats not my only "logic".... But clearly they are more enjoyable from my experiences cutting myself on shit at various points in my life, compared to when i'm high and drunk. It doesn't even take "logic" to realize making yourself bleed feels better than being intoxicated. Ah, but that's where we're different.  I have absolutely no way of understanding how losing control of yourself or taking drugs or alcohol could make me feel any better.  In fact, I know that all of these things are momentary reliever of pain. However, I'm different from you and even cutting myself on random shit is nice.  I no longer cut, and I haven't cut for two years, and I was always a mild and careful cutter.  But I liked it.  I like pain, and I probably always will.  I don't act on it, I have my reasons not to let my emotions get the better of me in these cases, but that desire is still there.  Simply put, blood relaxes me. Self-injury is also said to possibly release endorphins, which helps ease the pain. Again, it all depends on stand point, and definitely depression plays a large role in it.  Your average person, without depression, wouldn't feel the urge to cut on random occassions when upset. 420mike Posted at 7:57 pm on Sep. 12, 2008 Quote: from Just Waiting Here at 10:55 pm on Sep. 12, 2008 Quote: from 420Mike at 7:50 pm on Sep. 12, 2008 Quote: from LittleBombs at 10:47 pm on Sep. 12, 2008 Quote: from 420Mike at 7:37 pm on Sep. 12, 2008 Are you people fucking kidding me?  How can you seriously get addicted to cutting.... WHAT THE FUCK   Well how do people get addicted to alcohol? Or drugs, or a certain sport...or anything for that matter? They do it cause it helps them, even for a while. It's relaxes them and makes them feel calm.   Don't be so quick to judge.    Yeah but those feel good.  Don't give me some bullshit like "masking pain with pain gives me relief".  I say fuck that. Using you reasoning to determine why alcohol and drug addiction is justified... let's just say. "Cutting feels good", and by your own logic, that should be enough to determine why people do it. Thats not my only "logic".... But clearly they are more enjoyable from my experiences cutting myself on shit at various points in my life, compared to when i'm high and drunk.  It doesn't even take "logic" to realize making yourself bleed feels better than being intoxicated. Just Waiting Here Posted at 7:55 pm on Sep. 12, 2008 Quote: from 420Mike at 7:50 pm on Sep. 12, 2008 Quote: from LittleBombs at 10:47 pm on Sep. 12, 2008 Quote: from 420Mike at 7:37 pm on Sep. 12, 2008 Are you people fucking kidding me? How can you seriously get addicted to cutting.... WHAT THE FUCK    Well how do people get addicted to alcohol? Or drugs, or a certain sport...or anything for that matter? They do it cause it helps them, even for a while. It's relaxes them and makes them feel calm.    Don't be so quick to judge. Yeah but those feel good. Don't give me some bullshit like "masking pain with pain gives me relief". I say fuck that. Using you reasoning to determine why alcohol and drug addiction is justified... let's just say.  "Cutting feels good", and by your own logic, that should be enough to determine why people do it. LittleBombs Posted at 7:54 pm on Sep. 12, 2008 Quote: from 420Mike at 7:50 pm on Sep. 12, 2008 Quote: from LittleBombs at 10:47 pm on Sep. 12, 2008 Quote: from 420Mike at 7:37 pm on Sep. 12, 2008 Are you people fucking kidding me? How can you seriously get addicted to cutting.... WHAT THE FUCK    Well how do people get addicted to alcohol? Or drugs, or a certain sport...or anything for that matter? They do it cause it helps them, even for a while. It's relaxes them and makes them feel calm.    Don't be so quick to judge. Yeah but those feel good. Don't give me some bullshit like "masking pain with pain gives me relief". I say fuck that. Cutting feels good too. It helps deal with emotional pain. I remember I had stopped cutting for about three weeks, I was so angry and frustrated through not cutting. Then I cut and as soon as I did I felt so calm and relaxed, nothing bothered me. It's just when you rely on something to make you feel better, it's hard to get out of that. No matter what it is. Just Waiting Here Posted at 7:52 pm on Sep. 12, 2008 Quote: from 420Mike at 7:37 pm on Sep. 12, 2008 Are you people fucking kidding me? How can you seriously get addicted to cutting.... WHAT THE FUCK I take if you've never had the urge to cut before? If you haven't, then you can't expect to understand it.  But it's the same idea as those that get addicted to drugs or alcohol because of the momentary relief they receive from stress or problems. Again, if you haven't been through the feeling that pushes for cutting, then you won't be able to understand the concept or the reason that others do it. 420mike Posted at 7:50 pm on Sep. 12, 2008 Quote: from LittleBombs at 10:47 pm on Sep. 12, 2008 Quote: from 420Mike at 7:37 pm on Sep. 12, 2008 Are you people fucking kidding me?  How can you seriously get addicted to cutting.... WHAT THE FUCK Well how do people get addicted to alcohol? Or drugs, or a certain sport...or anything for that matter? They do it cause it helps them, even for a while. It's relaxes them and makes them feel calm. Don't be so quick to judge. Yeah but those feel good.  Don't give me some bullshit like "masking pain with pain gives me relief".  I say fuck that. LittleBombs Posted at 7:47 pm on Sep. 12, 2008 Quote: from 420Mike at 7:37 pm on Sep. 12, 2008 Are you people fucking kidding me? How can you seriously get addicted to cutting.... WHAT THE FUCK Well how do people get addicted to alcohol? Or drugs, or a certain sport...or anything for that matter? They do it cause it helps them, even for a while. It's relaxes them and makes them feel calm. Don't be so quick to judge. 420mike Posted at 7:37 pm on Sep. 12, 2008 Are you people fucking kidding me?  How can you seriously get addicted to cutting.... WHAT THE FUCK jamesish Posted at 7:37 pm on Sep. 12, 2008 Quote: from missmadejavu at 10:34 pm on Sep. 12, 2008 It's alright. You should be proud that you made it a week. It is hard to stop cutting. I've gone through it. You can PM me if you want to talk more. I've been clean from cutting for 3 years.   What are some of the ways that helped you stop cutting?  I think a ton of people could benefit from your responding answer. beautiful disaster Posted at 7:36 pm on Sep. 12, 2008 I did the wrists two years ago. Scars for life Be proud about the week, hun. f you need to talk we're all here for you. Just Waiting Here Posted at 7:36 pm on Sep. 12, 2008 Yes... but don't forget, you DID stop for a week, and that means you can do it again.  Whenever it comes to something liek this, you are bound to have relapses into it, but don't let that make you forget the achievements you've had.  If you've done it once, you can do it again. Don't be ashamed, it's a part of learning and getting over it.  Just work at it again, and remember the dislike you felt from today.  Let that help motivate you to stop :). LittleBombs Posted at 7:35 pm on Sep. 12, 2008 Don't worry about it. To me if you stopped for a week it shows you can do it. Next time, when you are ready try stopping for two weeks. Keep doing that, even if you start cutting again, just try and stop longer each time and it will get easier. Thats the way I did it, I have now stopped for over two months. Most recent 15 of 21 previous replies displayed.