Also, with the subject of what happened to you specifically. While I advocate an active mindset, I only do so that you take responsibility for everything in life. In some cases though, responsibility is not on your end, these are rarer events,
Only in these rare events is it possible to discover our own true character.
You are not responsible for the fact that you are raped. It was against your will, and therefore out of your control.
What is in your control, and what you are responsible for, is how you live your life despite what happened to you, despite everything you've lost, despite your own deep depression, despite any other influence, is your ability to respond to your given situation here and now as you see fit.
You are in a position for great growth of character and personal spirit, and perhaps in the future you'll even get angry with yourself for thinking fondly of it after knowing what it wrought in your future and through personal achievement of knowing that you can get past anything, tough it through any hardship.
I know, as I've suffered incredible hardship. I won't criticize yours, though.
Ending your life, or even failing to start living life to the greatest extent and with the greatest amount of joy that you can (even if it's only a small amount), is just a vindication of the rapists belief that it's ok for him to do that to you, that you're somehow below him.
If you're dead and he's still running around, you are six feet underground and he's none the wiser.
Think about it seriously, as you can't see the future, the best wager you have is to bet all in on life since the only other choice is to quit the game.