basically my dad has frightened me so much that i can't seperate fact from fiction: walking through the mall is as scary as pushing in carts at target, as scary as walking through downtown pontiac (guns and violence are there). I have frequently tried to tell other family members about it but they say i should just bear with it until i move out. how did i ever forgive him? im just NOW starting to feel emotions again! he's the reason i've had dreams of killing people and beating the shit out of him! How do i know to respect people without fearing for myself?