[Please understand beforehand,i don't mean go out as in going out with a boyfried or girlfriend]

I have a problem with going out with friends. My mom has never let me go out with anybody without her going with me. When i say i have never gone out with friends,i mean i have never been to someone's house,been in an afterschool program,went to the mall with friends,or anywhere else without my mom beside me.and its not that i want it to be that way;my mom forbids me to go anywhere without her being there.before i never gave it much thought,but now i see everyone around me having so much fun hanging out with friends outside and taking tons of pictures on myspace and facebook,and i can only look on at the pictures at home feeling sad and wondering what its like to be able to spend time with friends.it might not sound like a big thing,since its so normal to everybody,but really,nobody,not even my best friend who i tell all this to understands my feelings because they are so use to seeing their friends outside that my position doesnt make any affect on them.maybe you dont look at it as a big deal,as im assuming you are one of many who gets to go out with friends.but i am really torn living like this.

recently a friend of mines,who i happen to like a bit,asked why he never saw me with friends outside of school,and i had to say because i couldnt go out,and he said my life sucked and must be boring.it hurted alot.it makes me feel inferior to others when i hear of them making plans to go anywhere or asking bout when to go somewhere since i know i have no privilege of doing any of that.my previous boyfriend,who i never went anywhere with,told me i was boring afterwards.and it scars me still,as he was my first boyfriend.i cannot face him now without wanting to disappear..

some of you might think i should look farther in the future,that i will be free when i get older.and i do,jus to cheer myself up alot of times.but tell me how can i wen i am surrounded by the so outgoing friends i have? how can i when i sit quietly in a class with no one to talk to because i dont go out and meet new people and am too shy because of this? please give me some advice !