Adding Reply Archived Topic: It will not be bumped to the top of the forum. Topic Am I alone? Membername   Not a member? Sign Up Free (takes 20 seconds) Password   Forgotten your password? Post Font: Verdana Arial Black Georgia Comic Sans Impact   Size: Tiny Normal Big Huge   Color: Default Dark Red Red Orange Brown Green Olive Cyan Blue Dark Blue Indigo Black [ Check Spelling ] [ Post Preview ] [ LiveTags ] FAQ Keyword Search: Post Options Favorites Manager Notify me of new replies to this topic by email Notify me of new replies to this topic by private message Original Post Luvme4eva Posted at 1:21 pm on Nov. 17, 2008 I used to know how to hide the fact that I wasn't happy. I used to pretend that everything was alright and I could laugh anytime I felt I was about to cry. But for about a year now I just can't control my emotions. These mood swings make it impossible for me to know when I'm going to be angry, happy, apathetic, or extremely depressed. Right now, I'm crying and I keep trying to stop but the harder I try the more I cry. I want help so bad but I have trust issues and most likely self-esteem issues because when I think about trusting someone enough to ask for help, I feel even worse because they don't deserve my sob story and I'm not good enough for their concern. I don't know what to do anymore. I tried to tell my girlfriend about this but I know she has enough problems of her own and she doesn't need to be burdened by me. Plus, I'm afraid she'll realize what she's gotten herself into and stop loving me. I wouldn't be able to handle that, I'm unstable enough as is. I'm not asking anyone to tell me to get help because I don't care anymore. I just need somebody to tell me that I'm not the only going through this.

Replies J BiGGZ Posted at 7:59 am on Nov. 18, 2008 You're not the only one going through this, I promise you. For a long time you have managed to hide these emotions, but keeping them inside of you, is the worst thing you can do. What i don't see in your topic is why you feel this way. If you think that no one in the world understands you, try talking to people, and then you'll realise that a lot of people go through this. We all tend to hide things that really hurt us inside, in order to seem like nothing is wrong. I also went through this. I told my closest friends about the problems that i had, and they reassured me that everything was gonna be okay. Sometimes all you need is to express yourself to someone who you're close to. I'm always here if you want to talk about it, just send me a message. ininjateddybear Posted at 3:42 pm on Nov. 17, 2008 Your not the only one :hugs: theyareAs Posted at 2:46 pm on Nov. 17, 2008 Who isnt unhappy, honestly. RainbowKid92 Posted at 1:48 pm on Nov. 17, 2008 maybe your gf does understand, and isn't burdened by you, and won't stop loving you. maybe she thinks that everyone has imperfections, and the fact that you admit that you have one, makes you even more lovable...but, idk for sure, thats just MY opinion. Pvt Pyle Posted at 1:35 pm on Nov. 17, 2008 I'm unhappy with my life. I spend all my time trying to obtain something to get high, and it's more searching and just trying to find the stuff, and only a small time is spent actually being high and feeling good. But I cant imagine doing anything else. Unless its a job, that way I'd have money to buy stuff and not have to spend ALL my time trying to find an unsatisfying fix to hold my nerves Satine Posted at 1:29 pm on Nov. 17, 2008 You certainly aren't the only one, I can assure you of that. You managed to hide your feelings at first because you had strength to do so. However, keeping up such an act for weeks or months gets more difficult as time goes on, and that's what's happened to you. I suspect you're not going to like this, but I'm afraid the answer is to tell somebody. I know that hiding it all has worked for you until now, but it's not a tactic you can rely on any more. Now you need to face it, and if you want my advice on that, you'll do so as soon as possible. Sometimes dragging yourself out of a hole like this can take energy by itself, so you'll want as much left as possible for doing that. I hear you when you say that most people will not believe you, so it's important to find support - real support. Full marks for not wanting to pressure your girlfriend with all of this, but it might be worth telling her how it's going. Apart from that, there are specialist help forums online all over the place and you'll likely find practical help there, so Google whatever issues you have along with 'help forum' and you might well find an excellent mode of support. Good luck. Deadman15 Posted at 1:24 pm on Nov. 17, 2008 your not the only one bro Written in Love Posted at 1:22 pm on Nov. 17, 2008 You're not the only one. trust me. All 8 previous replies displayed.