Adding Reply Archived Topic: It will not be bumped to the top of the forum. Topic I hate my life. Membername   Not a member? Sign Up Free (takes 20 seconds) Password   Forgotten your password? Post Font: Verdana Arial Black Georgia Comic Sans Impact   Size: Tiny Normal Big Huge   Color: Default Dark Red Red Orange Brown Green Olive Cyan Blue Dark Blue Indigo Black [ Check Spelling ] [ Post Preview ] [ LiveTags ] FAQ Keyword Search: Post Options Favorites Manager Notify me of new replies to this topic by email Notify me of new replies to this topic by private message Original Post Anonymous Posted at 5:03 pm on Nov. 18, 2008 That's about it, really. And I want to die. There's no long-drawn out explanation of how and why I got to this point. This is just it. I see no future ahead of me. Seems like I'm just destined to fail in life. Everything I do is wrong. I'm always two steps behind. I have no support system from my family. My parents don't let me do anything, and by that, I mean anything. I wanted to help out with the canned food drive at school, so I wanted to donate $20 of MY money. I recognize that we aren't rich or anything, but I have food on my table. Why can't I donate money *I* earned? I'm afraid that when I get out in the real world, I won't know how to do anything, because I'm not allowed. My grandma tries to help, but after a while her "You can do it!" "Just stay positive" gets annoying, and I stop talking to her, because it's hard to stay positive when shit continues to his the fan. I'd prefer to die in my sleep of course. This does not mean I'm going to go kill myself. I don't have the guts to do that. I just wish I could die. It'd be easier. To just get it over with. I'm not making a significant contribution to this planet anyways. Nothing [about me] matters.

Replies Mourningseptmbr Posted at 6:29 am on Nov. 19, 2008 Im sorry that things are not going so well. But unfortunately the only person you can change is you. You need to change your thinking, at first youre going to feel stupid and not want to do it but try noticing and appreciating some things that do make you happy, even if its something stupid...like "wow i really can appreciate the good weather today" the more u notice things around u that make u happy the more the trivial arguments will seem like nothing and u can slowly just learn to not let ur parents get you so down on yourself.  u shouldnt want to kill urself in spite of your parents. RoseBeautyMagical416 Posted at 5:01 am on Nov. 19, 2008 All I can say is this... I am sorry for the things that you are going through. Yes I do not know you, but I do know what its like to want to just die in your sleep, to not wake up in the morning, to not have to face reality and the world at times because it is simply too much to deal with it.  I was lucky though to be able to go through counseling. I may not have gone through the same situatin, but I do understand the feeling of being alone. There is this great saying I heard, it may sound optimistic and fluffy and all that crap, but it helped me. "Everything will be ok in the end. If it is not ok then it is not the end"    -unknown If you ever need to talk I'll listen and I promise I won't use all that "just stay positive" crap. cherryD Posted at 2:34 am on Nov. 19, 2008 Quote: from Anonymous at 9:51 am on Nov. 19, 2008 Quote: from CherryD at 5:15 pm on Nov. 18, 2008 Have you ever tried explaining to them how you feel? Yes, they don't care. However, them not supporting me is not neccessarily directly related to me wanting to die. It's just more icing on the cake. I'm not really sure how to explain what is truly depressing me, which is why I didn't really get into it. =/ Well, have you read The Greatest Gift? It's about this guy named George feeling as if he has no contribution to anything and his life is worthless and he wished he was dead and one day while he was standing in front of the river debating over whether he should die or not a little man went over to him.  George told the little man he wished he had never been born. The little man told him, "Well, you've got your wish. You are never born."  Not believing him, George walked back home and he realizes the bank he worked in was closed down because apparently he "wasn't born" and therefore had never saved the bank, and some other stuff that may not seem significant but were. Like how his younger brother died because George had not been there to pull him out of the river when he had a cramp all of a sudden.  It just makes you realize that you actually DO contribute to society, you HAVE helped people one way or another and without you, things would have been worse. It makes your life...significant, you know? Anonymous Posted at 5:51 pm on Nov. 18, 2008 Quote: from CherryD at 5:15 pm on Nov. 18, 2008 Have you ever tried explaining to them how you feel? Yes, they don't care. However, them not supporting me is not neccessarily directly related to me wanting to die. It's just more icing on the cake. I'm not really sure how to explain what is truly depressing me, which is why I didn't really get into it. =/ RoseBeautyMagical416 Posted at 5:27 pm on Nov. 18, 2008 Quote: from CherryD at 5:21 pm on Nov. 18, 2008 Quote: from RoseBeautyMagical416 at 9:17 am on Nov. 19, 2008 Quote: from CherryD at 5:14 pm on Nov. 18, 2008 If you realize, barely anyone compared to the entire human population, makes any contribution to Earth. We all have big dreams, but most of our big dreams simply stay in our heads.        Hey, I feel the same way. Not the dying part, I mean the part where my parents don't let me do anything. Donating $20 of your money might make you feel as if, hey it's my money, it's none of your parents' business to see where you put to use of your money, furthermore it's for a good cause. But the reason they don't allow is because they probably don't see the use of it, they don't feel as..charitable as you. It doesn't really matter to them whether it's your own money or their money. What matters to them is that they might be thinking you are spending your money unwisely.        So instead of feeling unsupported or something, try to think that you are doing this for yourself. It doesn't matter whether your parents approve of whatever you do...well, it does matter but at the end of the day, whatever you are doing, you are doing it for yourself and therefore don't get too upset.    And for your grandma, yeah, it might get a little annoying because she doesn't really do anything and simply say the same things over and over again. But at least she's supporting you. So try to show your appreciation.    I'm responding to the first paragraph of what you said    I bet you are really helpful when it comes to cheering people up.. you ray of sunshine Is that sincere or laced with sarcasm. sarcasm :) cherryD Posted at 5:21 pm on Nov. 18, 2008 Quote: from RoseBeautyMagical416 at 9:17 am on Nov. 19, 2008 Quote: from CherryD at 5:14 pm on Nov. 18, 2008  If you realize, barely anyone compared to the entire human population, makes any contribution to Earth. We all have big dreams, but most of our big dreams simply stay in our heads.   Hey,  I feel the same way. Not the dying part, I mean the part where my parents don't let me do anything. Donating $20 of your money might make you feel as if, hey it's my money, it's none of your parents' business to see where you put to use of your money, furthermore it's for a good cause. But the reason they don't allow is because they probably don't see the use of it, they don't feel as..charitable as you. It doesn't really matter to them whether it's your own money or their money. What matters to them is that they might be thinking you are spending your money unwisely.   So instead of feeling unsupported or something, try to think that you are doing this for yourself. It doesn't matter whether your parents approve of whatever you do...well, it does matter but at the end of the day, whatever you are doing, you are doing it for yourself and therefore don't get too upset.     And for your grandma, yeah, it might get a little annoying because she doesn't really do anything and simply say the same things over and over again. But at least she's supporting you. So try to show your appreciation. I'm responding to the first paragraph of what you said I bet you are really helpful when it comes to cheering people up.. you ray of sunshine Is that sincere or laced with sarcasm. RoseBeautyMagical416 Posted at 5:17 pm on Nov. 18, 2008 Quote: from CherryD at 5:14 pm on Nov. 18, 2008 If you realize, barely anyone compared to the entire human population, makes any contribution to Earth. We all have big dreams, but most of our big dreams simply stay in our heads.     Hey, I feel the same way. Not the dying part, I mean the part where my parents don't let me do anything. Donating $20 of your money might make you feel as if, hey it's my money, it's none of your parents' business to see where you put to use of your money, furthermore it's for a good cause. But the reason they don't allow is because they probably don't see the use of it, they don't feel as..charitable as you. It doesn't really matter to them whether it's your own money or their money. What matters to them is that they might be thinking you are spending your money unwisely.     So instead of feeling unsupported or something, try to think that you are doing this for yourself. It doesn't matter whether your parents approve of whatever you do...well, it does matter but at the end of the day, whatever you are doing, you are doing it for yourself and therefore don't get too upset.   And for your grandma, yeah, it might get a little annoying because she doesn't really do anything and simply say the same things over and over again. But at least she's supporting you. So try to show your appreciation. I'm responding to the first paragraph of what you said I bet you are really helpful when it comes to cheering people up.. you ray of sunshine cherryD Posted at 5:15 pm on Nov. 18, 2008 Have you ever tried explaining to them how you feel? cherryD Posted at 5:14 pm on Nov. 18, 2008  If you realize, barely anyone compared to the entire human population, makes any contribution to Earth. We all have big dreams, but most of our big dreams simply stay in our heads.  Hey,  I feel the same way. Not the dying part, I mean the part where my parents don't let me do anything. Donating $20 of your money might make you feel as if, hey it's my money, it's none of your parents' business to see where you put to use of your money, furthermore it's for a good cause. But the reason they don't allow is because they probably don't see the use of it, they don't feel as..charitable as you. It doesn't really matter to them whether it's your own money or their money. What matters to them is that they might be thinking you are spending your money unwisely.  So instead of feeling unsupported or something, try to think that you are doing this for yourself. It doesn't matter whether your parents approve of whatever you do...well, it does matter but at the end of the day, whatever you are doing, you are doing it for yourself and therefore don't get too upset.  And for your grandma, yeah, it might get a little annoying because she doesn't really do anything and simply say the same things over and over again. But at least she's supporting you. So try to show your appreciation. RoseBeautyMagical416 Posted at 5:10 pm on Nov. 18, 2008 Quote: from Anonymous at 5:07 pm on Nov. 18, 2008 Quote: from RoseBeautyMagical416 at 5:05 pm on Nov. 18, 2008 okay..    here is a question    how do your parents not support you? I don't know how to explain it to you, but you know how you hear of kids volunteering and stuff? Yeah, I could never do that. you couldn't volunteer cause ur parents would not let you. srry if i seem slow, but i amtrying to make sure if i understand minnie38 Posted at 5:08 pm on Nov. 18, 2008 theres people out there going through worse shit. so buck up Deviant Posted at 5:08 pm on Nov. 18, 2008 You have to create a purpose for yourself. Please don't think you are worthless or anything like that, you are most likely young, and a lot of us don't know what we want yet. If you want to talk, message me. I'll listen. Anonymous Posted at 5:07 pm on Nov. 18, 2008 Quote: from RoseBeautyMagical416 at 5:05 pm on Nov. 18, 2008 okay.. here is a question how do your parents not support you? I don't know how to explain it to you, but you know how you hear of kids volunteering and stuff? Yeah, I could never do that. Paisapunkprincess Posted at 5:05 pm on Nov. 18, 2008 omg you sound like me when i was 17. message me if you need anything. RoseBeautyMagical416 Posted at 5:05 pm on Nov. 18, 2008 okay.. here is a question how do your parents not support you? Most recent 15 of 15 previous replies displayed.