I just feel so worthless. Nobody would honestly care if I died tonight, now would they? ...Didn't think so.
I'll just drink away my problems like always.
People would care if you died tonight, but they probably couldn't comprehend what you've been through, and just are insensitive, shallow idiots. Unfortunately, this is a fact of the era we live in now. I'm not going to tell you to "get over it" because it really fucking bothers me too, but it probably has very little to do with you. It's a universal thing.
Call it.