Adding Reply Archived Topic: It will not be bumped to the top of the forum. Topic Suicidal Thoughts. Membername   Not a member? Sign Up Free (takes 20 seconds) Password   Forgotten your password? Post Font: Verdana Arial Black Georgia Comic Sans Impact   Size: Tiny Normal Big Huge   Color: Default Dark Red Red Orange Brown Green Olive Cyan Blue Dark Blue Indigo Black [ Check Spelling ] [ Post Preview ] [ LiveTags ] FAQ Keyword Search: Post Options Favorites Manager Notify me of new replies to this topic by email Notify me of new replies to this topic by private message Original Post Anonymous Posted at 11:58 am on Dec. 11, 2008 I really don't want to be posting this but I know I need to talk to someone or get some kind of advice from someone. I could never tell anyone in real life about this. Just the thought of someone finding out makes me want to die just for thinking so stupidly. Every night for the past couple of weeks I always day dream about killing myself. How I do it, and how different people I know react on it. And, I like it. It makes me feel better to think about dying. Not better, I mean I'll think about it for a long time, then I'll just start crying. I already cut, nobody knows about that. Except for one person who I shouldn't of even told. I really don't want to tell anyone in my family. I know they don't care anyways, I use to cut and they seen them, over a hundred cuts all over my legs and arms. Stomach too but I never showed anyone that. They never got me any help. If I told them about how I'm feeling now, they would just lock me up. Therapy would be nice, but they don't have the money. I don't even think we have insurance anymore cause I never go to doctor or anything even if I really need to. Like they told me before, I just cause problems and cost them more money.

Replies 911teen org Posted at 12:06 pm on Dec. 11, 2008 i no who u r!!! *hugs* i love u call me wickedtruth09 Posted at 12:04 pm on Dec. 11, 2008 I understand completely I've been there. Recently I thought about it and sometimes it like overwhelms me. I've actually taken a knife and run it over my wrist but not to cut myself. But because I was flirtling with death and it felt good. Fantasizing about killign yourself isn't as abnormal as one would think xobeautifulgirlox Posted at 12:02 pm on Dec. 11, 2008 Hey there. The most important thing , is to feel like you are not alone. It is better to have 1 or two good friends, then to have like 100. I am sure that you have someone that loves you and cares about you. Talk to them about your problems; maybe that will be therapy to you. Also, find a hobby that you love and do it everyday. Try finding out new ways to be creative and and have fun. Go for a run, just do something that makes you feel good-- something positive and that will make you feel better in the long run. Good luck, and just know you're not alone. Also, some people have a hard time expressing themselves, and you're family wouldn't want you to go. Just stay strong, and talk to someone about everything, and do stuff that will make you feel good. Tokyo7 Posted at 12:02 pm on Dec. 11, 2008 But don't kill yourself their is always a tomorrow you know. Ad libitum Posted at 12:01 pm on Dec. 11, 2008 I've been in the same situation as you. Please PM me if you ever want to. heyitnat Posted at 12:00 pm on Dec. 11, 2008 uhm, im sorry but you should see a guidance counselor thats probably the best if you dont have money Tokyo7 Posted at 12:00 pm on Dec. 11, 2008 Hmm ... You know i would tell you it will go away but i've been thinking about suicide at least once a day since i can remember. Tag548 Posted at 12:00 pm on Dec. 11, 2008 i'm really sorry, just hang in there and keep your head up even though i know it is hard to. but what doesnt kill you makes you stronger All 8 previous replies displayed.