Adding Reply Archived Topic: It will not be bumped to the top of the forum. Topic bye bye emotions....sigh Membername   Not a member? Sign Up Free (takes 20 seconds) Password   Forgotten your password? Post Font: Verdana Arial Black Georgia Comic Sans Impact   Size: Tiny Normal Big Huge   Color: Default Dark Red Red Orange Brown Green Olive Cyan Blue Dark Blue Indigo Black [ Check Spelling ] [ Post Preview ] [ LiveTags ] FAQ Keyword Search: Post Options Favorites Manager Notify me of new replies to this topic by email Notify me of new replies to this topic by private message Original Post Anonymous Posted at 8:11 pm on Dec. 22, 2008 when i was young my cuz sexually assulted me, my dad beat me, and i lost 1/2 my hearing so i had to learn how to read lips... it was too much to handle so i shut down all of my emotions.... i felt no pain and not sadness... i felt nothing.  then i met my bf and he helped me to feel emotions again... it took my FOREVER to live with them again cuz i did not have emotions for like 5 years... then i began to see everything i was missing out on... but now my bf is going away to bootcamp/ job training for 5 months and idk if i can talk to him or anything.  Idk i though i could handle it but i am starting to catch myself not feeling anything right now.  Im scaird i don't want to lose my emotions again... but i can't stop it... im afraid of the pain...

Replies Colleen35 Posted at 3:34 pm on Dec. 23, 2008 You should be able to talk to him while he's there, unless he has some really strange job.  And even if you can't, you have all the emotional support he's already given you, and the proof you can be ok in the future because you have been in the past; and, when things start seeming tough, remember he's coming back. You can do this.  Just hold on to what he's already given you, and what you've accomplished in coming out of the state you were in before.   Good luck. Vana Posted at 9:00 pm on Dec. 22, 2008 Quote: from santana 08 at 10:14 pm on Dec. 22, 2008 Quote: from Vana at 8:13 pm on Dec. 22, 2008 suck it up. My boyfriend left too.    Its not like he's dying or anything, he IS coming back and if you cant be a independent and strong woman, then you have no business doing it Rude much? and? Anonymous Posted at 8:19 pm on Dec. 22, 2008 Quote: from c1burube at 11:15 pm on Dec. 22, 2008 put ur emotions on a fucking leash i loled with that one XxMissMurderxX Posted at 8:18 pm on Dec. 22, 2008 Awww..*hugs* It's gonna be ok. Just think of how happy you'll be and how happy your bf will be when you see eachother again. Do things that do make you happy, mabe talk to a family member or a close friend about how you'r beginning to feel and mabe they can help you out. Think of things that relax you and make you feel good. Smell a candle that's good or try to do something that will make your emotions wake up. I hope that everything turns out ok. c1burube Posted at 8:15 pm on Dec. 22, 2008 put ur emotions on a fucking leash Live Just To Die Posted at 8:14 pm on Dec. 22, 2008 You need to show yourself you can be strong, him going away will be a chance to prove it to yourself. santana 08 Posted at 8:14 pm on Dec. 22, 2008 Quote: from Vana at 8:13 pm on Dec. 22, 2008 suck it up. My boyfriend left too. Its not like he's dying or anything, he IS coming back and if you cant be a independent and strong woman, then you have no business doing it Rude much? savannaaa Posted at 8:13 pm on Dec. 22, 2008 It'll be okay. If he inspired you feel so much, you should continue to feel that way. You can't be so dependent on him. Thoughts of him should make you happy. All you can be is positive. Vana Posted at 8:13 pm on Dec. 22, 2008 suck it up. My boyfriend left too. Its not like he's dying or anything, he IS coming back and if you cant be a independent and strong woman, then you have no business doing it JennyBee Posted at 8:13 pm on Dec. 22, 2008 how do you loose your emotions? Wow that is sadd. All 10 previous replies displayed.