Adding Reply Archived Topic: It will not be bumped to the top of the forum. Topic In a way, it's really liberating not to care about anything anymore. Membername   Not a member? Sign Up Free (takes 20 seconds) Password   Forgotten your password? Post Font: Verdana Arial Black Georgia Comic Sans Impact   Size: Tiny Normal Big Huge   Color: Default Dark Red Red Orange Brown Green Olive Cyan Blue Dark Blue Indigo Black [ Check Spelling ] [ Post Preview ] [ LiveTags ] FAQ Keyword Search: Post Options Favorites Manager Notify me of new replies to this topic by email Notify me of new replies to this topic by private message Original Post The Last Magister Posted at 3:43 pm on Jan. 8, 2009 It's nice knowing you have total control over your life because it doesn't really have any value to you anymore. It feels like...utter freedom. To not care what happens to you for other's sakes. Wouldn't you agree?

Replies The Last Magister Posted at 5:17 pm on Jan. 8, 2009 Thanks. SpRiNgS Posted at 5:14 pm on Jan. 8, 2009 I do understand you just seem to be blinded right now. Even those without anything can have something take that however you want to but i know eventually you'll make the right decision. you're a bright kid The Last Magister Posted at 5:08 pm on Jan. 8, 2009 Quote: from Springs at 7:05 pm on Jan. 8, 2009 Quote: from TheLastMagister at 5:01 pm on Jan. 8, 2009 It didn't turn me suicidal, that's what you don't understand. I was suicidal before her, and after I am the way I was before, I just want to leave. That's all I want. I don't want to be around anymore. so you're regressing instead of growing up? thats what it seems like you had a moment, but now you're back to thinking you're worthless cause soemoen showed interest in you, then lost it. so now tha they gave up on you you regress back into the kid who doesnt believe in himself? I find that to be a lie you obviously find pride in how smart you are...this is really seeming like a phase to me Unless 12 years of my life are a phase I really don't think so. When I was with her was a phase, it was a nice time to show me what I could never have. I've lost everyone who is close to, I really don't think you understand, I have lost EVERYONE. SpRiNgS Posted at 5:05 pm on Jan. 8, 2009 Quote: from TheLastMagister at 5:01 pm on Jan. 8, 2009 It didn't turn me suicidal, that's what you don't understand. I was suicidal before her, and after I am the way I was before, I just want to leave. That's all I want. I don't want to be around anymore. so you're regressing instead of growing up? thats what it seems like you had a moment, but now you're back to thinking you're worthless cause soemoen showed interest in you, then lost it. so now tha they gave up on you you regress back into the kid who doesnt believe in himself? I find that to be a lie you obviously find pride in how smart you are...this is really seeming like a phase to me The Last Magister Posted at 5:01 pm on Jan. 8, 2009 It didn't turn me suicidal, that's what you don't understand. I was suicidal before her, and after I am the way I was before, I just want to leave. That's all I want. I don't want to be around anymore. SpRiNgS Posted at 5:00 pm on Jan. 8, 2009 i get it but ot me it just sounds like you're depressed about a bigtime break up you're gonna gonna hopefully get over it once you  stop feeling sorry for yourself and realize the truth and that you're not worthless, you only suck if you think you suck. Your problem has always been you let others get to you. you have soft skin. need to get some thick skin, or, in other words, grow some balls seriously.........you let shit get to you way too much to have this turning you suicidal and dont think i'm sayign this with malicious intent. You're a smart kid, you show flashes of brilliance, but you hamper yourself ahnd muddy it when you decide to play with peons at their own level and let them drag you down. You could be great once you learn to not let people get to you, cash666 Posted at 5:00 pm on Jan. 8, 2009 why?? the world will mis you dude. we need you. is she not a reason to live? i live for the people around me and would even give my life to save a friend or family, anyone close to me but to jus WASTE my life.. i couldn't do that or let you do that. life can be hard granted but its worth it. i told myself a long time ago i would never  wish to die again... thats something i dont realy like discussing... look dude please dont die. people DO care about you you know your ARE important. tell urself that each day. write it on the walls if you have to. (love ur pic btw ^_^) oh yeah when i get depressed like that i get a new hobby and meet new ppl (yeah ive got a lot of hobbies now no time to be depressed hhehehe) The Last Magister Posted at 4:55 pm on Jan. 8, 2009 Quote: from Springs at 6:51 pm on Jan. 8, 2009 Quote: from TheLastMagister at 4:40 pm on Jan. 8, 2009 Quote: from Springs at 6:30 pm on Jan. 8, 2009 well whatever she saw in you, reason would lead me to believe that ohters see those qualities in you. To kill yoursel fnow would probably deprive a future person from meeting you and enjoying these great qualities.    I don't want another person, I just want to be done with everything. I just want to die. I have no will to live anymore, I have no want to try again, I don't want to find something to live for. I just want to die. You dont have to have another person. you're too young to or too blinded to realize taht here will be other people you'll feel the same way about. all this talk of wantign to die is a bit immature, seriously. Deathis it, the end, you wont have anything to do, you're talking like you have nothing to truly live for. Have you even graduated yet? have a chance to be on your own? be free from ALL expectations? be your own man? I think you are the one who doesn't get it. I DONT WANT THERE TO BE ANYTHING AFTERWARDS. I want it to be the end of me existing, I want to just stop everything, I don't ever want to know or think anything again, I don't want to feel, I don't want anything. I just want to die. That's all I want. I don't want an afterlife, I don't want hell, or heaven, I just want to be dead. That is it. SpRiNgS Posted at 4:51 pm on Jan. 8, 2009 Quote: from TheLastMagister at 4:40 pm on Jan. 8, 2009 Quote: from Springs at 6:30 pm on Jan. 8, 2009 well whatever she saw in you, reason would lead me to believe that ohters see those qualities in you. To kill yoursel fnow would probably deprive a future person from meeting you and enjoying these great qualities. I don't want another person, I just want to be done with everything. I just want to die. I have no will to live anymore, I have no want to try again, I don't want to find something to live for. I just want to die. You dont have to have another person. you're too young to or too blinded to realize taht here will be other people you'll feel the same way about. all this talk of wantign to die is a bit immature, seriously. Deathis it, the end, you wont have anything to do, you're talking like you have nothing to truly live for. Have you even graduated yet? have a chance to be on your own? be free from ALL expectations? be your own man? The Last Magister Posted at 4:40 pm on Jan. 8, 2009 Quote: from Springs at 6:30 pm on Jan. 8, 2009 well whatever she saw in you, reason would lead me to believe that ohters see those qualities in you. To kill yoursel fnow would probably deprive a future person from meeting you and enjoying these great qualities. I don't want another person, I just want to be done with everything. I just want to die. I have no will to live anymore, I have no want to try again, I don't want to find something to live for. I just want to die. SpRiNgS Posted at 4:30 pm on Jan. 8, 2009 well whatever she saw in you, reason would lead me to believe that ohters see those qualities in you. To kill yoursel fnow would probably deprive a future person from meeting you and enjoying these great qualities. The Last Magister Posted at 4:26 pm on Jan. 8, 2009 Quote: from Springs at 6:24 pm on Jan. 8, 2009 this ounds like break up depression to be honest so she broke you heart that bad? No. When she met me I was already suicidal. I have nothing to live for, I'm ready to die now. SpRiNgS Posted at 4:24 pm on Jan. 8, 2009 this ounds like break up depression to be honest so she broke you heart that bad? The Last Magister Posted at 4:16 pm on Jan. 8, 2009 Quote: from Springs at 6:11 pm on Jan. 8, 2009 you do realize offing yourself this young is the worst possible thing you could do right? but if you want to disappear to "her" whoever she is, then you can cant you? just dont talk to her anymore? I can't die wondering if she thought I was dead or not, and if it was her fault. It isn't, but I still... Offing myself now, my only regret would be that I hadn't before I met her. SpRiNgS Posted at 4:11 pm on Jan. 8, 2009 you do realize offing yourself this young is the worst possible thing you could do right? but if you want to disappear to "her" whoever she is, then you can cant you? just dont talk to her anymore? Most recent 15 of 31 previous replies displayed.