Adding Reply Archived Topic: It will not be bumped to the top of the forum. Topic I'm going to eventually kill myself Membername   Not a member? Sign Up Free (takes 20 seconds) Password   Forgotten your password? Post Font: Verdana Arial Black Georgia Comic Sans Impact   Size: Tiny Normal Big Huge   Color: Default Dark Red Red Orange Brown Green Olive Cyan Blue Dark Blue Indigo Black [ Check Spelling ] [ Post Preview ] [ LiveTags ] FAQ Keyword Search: Post Options Favorites Manager Notify me of new replies to this topic by email Notify me of new replies to this topic by private message Original Post michbrokencyde Posted at 5:04 pm on July 1, 2012 I've been having to deal with my older sister and her 3 kids for almost 4 years now. She had moved in with us when I was 17 because she had lost her house. Since then my parents divorced back in February (my dad left before I turned 18). I don't see him anymore because he moved out of state and remarried a woman in April. We also lost our house due to him leaving so we ended up living in hotels with mine and my sisters social security combined. I ended up moving into my friends house right after I graduated high school I lived there for about 7 months before I got thrown out. Now I am living with my mom, my sister, and her 3 kids all over again. Recently I've gone mentally crazy to the point where my panic attacks are very severe I cannot breathe. All I want to do is cry. Everything that has happened to me just rushes through my head. I also found out my mom has cancer which of course added on the depression. I pushed all of my friends away instead of a girl I've known for almost 15 years. I take Benadryl to make myself sleep and everytime I take it I pray to god I don't wake up the next day. I hate my life I know there are people out there who have it worse then me and I respect that but I don't know how much more of this bullshit I can take.

Replies Gods Gift To Women Posted at 4:19 am on July 2, 2012 I'm sorry you went through so much i hope you can find peace within your surroundings and within your heart. I been through so much myself and i can just imagine what your going through. zekeman1000 Posted at 5:56 pm on July 1, 2012 Ohh lol k. What's wrong with your current house? Are they like,asholes? Kaijuu Posted at 5:55 pm on July 1, 2012 Quote: from zekeman1000 at 5:42 pm on July 1, 2012 Quote: from Kaijuu at 5:20 pm on July 1, 2012 Oh and if for some reason you end up in CO I need a roommate   I thought you're living with your boyfriend? I am. But we don't want to stay in the house we are sharing and would like a roommate. zekeman1000 Posted at 5:42 pm on July 1, 2012 Quote: from Kaijuu at 5:20 pm on July 1, 2012 Oh and if for some reason you end up in CO I need a roommate I thought you're living with your boyfriend?   michbrokencyde Posted at 5:26 pm on July 1, 2012 Quote: from Kaijuu at 8:20 pm on July 1, 2012 Oh and if for some reason you end up in CO I need a roommate Works for me   Kaijuu Posted at 5:20 pm on July 1, 2012 Oh and if for some reason you end up in CO I need a roommate   michbrokencyde Posted at 5:18 pm on July 1, 2012 Quote: from Kaijuu at 8:17 pm on July 1, 2012 Quote: from michbrokencyde at 5:13 pm on July 1, 2012 Quote: from Kaijuu at 8:10 pm on July 1, 2012 If you still get social security then use that to move out and apply for food stamps RIGHT NOW since you are on a computer. If you don't get the social security then I suggest you try your best to get a job. Apply for welfare or make your mom do it. Also you seem very mentally unstable. Maybe you have a mental disablility? Apply for disability. I knew a couple of gguys in arizona with bipolar disorder who got disability checks.       You can use that to move out on your own and when you get a job you can get off of it.       look for places to live on craigslist   you can look for jobs too   you could be a nude model or something and make some side cash.       dont give up    Oh I would totally move out but I can't because of my autism and seizures. I can't even work because of it. My records even say I have to live with someone the rest of my life. Thats stupid. You should not have to live with them or anyone. You should get a disability check if you have autism and seizures. you could use that, welfare, and foodstamps and live alone or find a roommate on craigslist. You have a great point there. Kaijuu Posted at 5:17 pm on July 1, 2012 Quote: from michbrokencyde at 5:13 pm on July 1, 2012 Quote: from Kaijuu at 8:10 pm on July 1, 2012 If you still get social security then use that to move out and apply for food stamps RIGHT NOW since you are on a computer. If you don't get the social security then I suggest you try your best to get a job. Apply for welfare or make your mom do it. Also you seem very mentally unstable. Maybe you have a mental disablility? Apply for disability. I knew a couple of gguys in arizona with bipolar disorder who got disability checks.  You can use that to move out on your own and when you get a job you can get off of it.  look for places to live on craigslist    you can look for jobs too    you could be a nude model or something and make some side cash.  dont give up Oh I would totally move out but I can't because of my autism and seizures. I can't even work because of it. My records even say I have to live with someone the rest of my life. Thats stupid. You should not have to live with them or anyone. You should get a disability check if you have autism and seizures. you could use that, welfare, and foodstamps and live alone or find a roommate on craigslist. michbrokencyde Posted at 5:13 pm on July 1, 2012 Quote: from Kaijuu at 8:10 pm on July 1, 2012 If you still get social security then use that to move out and apply for food stamps RIGHT NOW since you are on a computer. If you don't get the social security then I suggest you try your best to get a job. Apply for welfare or make your mom do it. Also you seem very mentally unstable. Maybe you have a mental disablility? Apply for disability. I knew a couple of gguys in arizona with bipolar disorder who got disability checks.   You can use that to move out on your own and when you get a job you can get off of it.   look for places to live on craigslist you can look for jobs too you could be a nude model or something and make some side cash.   dont give up Oh I would totally move out but I can't because of my autism and seizures. I can't even work because of it. My records even say I have to live with someone the rest of my life. mal3diction amoureux Posted at 5:10 pm on July 1, 2012 Post from this position was omitted due to content violations Kaijuu Posted at 5:10 pm on July 1, 2012 If you still get social security then use that to move out and apply for food stamps RIGHT NOW since you are on a computer. If you don't get the social security then I suggest you try your best to get a job. Apply for welfare or make your mom do it. Also you seem very mentally unstable. Maybe you have a mental disablility? Apply for disability. I knew a couple of gguys in arizona with bipolar disorder who got disability checks. You can use that to move out on your own and when you get a job you can get off of it. look for places to live on craigslist you can look for jobs too you could be a nude model or something and make some side cash. dont give up A 5ky1it Driv3 Posted at 5:07 pm on July 1, 2012 Post from this position was omitted due to content violations All 12 previous replies displayed.