my dad left when i was 2 my mom blames me for it i hate her boyfriend i have a sister i havent seen since my dad left i know she tried to write to me years ago but my mom threw out the letters i hate her for that and because she wrecked a home and made her bf leave his family i hate my house and my neighborhood im sick of beign afraid to leave my house because all anyone ever does is get shot or stabbed or mugged or raped i miss having a best friend i have nothing anymore my boyfriend lives far away hes in the hospital right now and didnt tell me why but i know please pray for him =[ i WAS a recovered cutter not after today i hate too many people i really want to be happy im sorry to everyone i hurt i wish my bf was here and i wish he was alright cuz idk what to do and im so sorry for being upset id do anything to make him ok i love him please pray that hes ok im sorry