I keep replaying this video I have of my nephew when he was 4 months old.

I am on a rocking chair. Holding him ever so delicately. And I am singing, "Rock a by Baby". They played that when he was born in the hospital. But they do that for all newborns. But he loved this lullaby. Always put him to sleep.

You can hear him cooing. And sucking his pacifier away. My mom took the video and you can hear talking to me. I was the only one who was ever able to get him to go to sleep.

I am think I have snapped. I think I should call my pych or someone.