Unfortunately, she ended up cheating on me and going with some other guy who's a complete jerk. I never even did anything wrong to her, but she hurt me anyway. I was always open minded, sensitive, and comforting to her. I loved and trusted her and I don't know why she had to do this to me.
I know what you're thinking: I should move on and look for someone else. But the truth of the matter is that there is no one else. Most other girls who I've asked out before have rejected me. Even when I've just wanted to be friends with them, they were rude and ignorant. All I ever wanted was to find that special someone so that I wouldn't have to be alone anymore. All I ever wanted was to just feel loved.
I just want a girl who can be there for me as I would for her. I want a girl who will love me for who I am and not just about my body or sex. As pathetic as this may sound, I also want to be held by her and know that she's always there. It seems that this is all only fantasy. Sometimes, I cannot sleep at night because it's so difficult, knowing that there's other couples out there my age, while I have nobody. Sometimes, I wish I was dead. Maybe things will never get better. I've lost all hope in everything now, including God.
Well, it's been over 5 months already since my ex-girlfriend dumped me and I've still had no luck with finding that special someone. The funny part is that I was so close to her and I had such high expectations in her. No other girl ever treated me as good as she did. In fact, despite that I'm such a nice guy, most girls seem to hate me anyway, and they always go for the assholes. This girl on the other hand showed so much potential. Unfortunately, she ended up cheating on me and going with some other guy who's a complete jerk. I never even did anything wrong to her, but she hurt me anyway. I was always open minded, sensitive, and comforting to her. I loved and trusted her and I don't know why she had to do this to me. I know what you're thinking: I should move on and look for someone else. But the truth of the matter is that there is no one else. Most other girls who I've asked out before have rejected me. Even when I've just wanted to be friends with them, they were rude and ignorant. All I ever wanted was to find that special someone so that I wouldn't have to be alone anymore. All I ever wanted was to just feel loved. I just want a girl who can be there for me as I would for her. I want a girl who will love me for who I am and not just about my body or sex. As pathetic as this may sound, I also want to be held by her and know that she's always there. It seems that this is all only fantasy. Sometimes, I cannot sleep at night because it's so difficult, knowing that there's other couples out there my age, while I have nobody. Sometimes, I wish I was dead. Maybe things will never get better. I've lost all hope in everything now, including God.
Well the ending of your post isn't good here. First you gotto have confidence and a positive attitude towards things in life. I feel lonley too in terms of being in a relationship and friendship even. I got some friends but there not close. It is better than nothing tho. I'm also confident that one day I'll find a close friend in my city that is. I have found 1 online. He's far away tho so the possibility of us seeing each other even is triple times doubtful. I been in 2 relationships and they sucked. I was sexually and emotionally abused for 1 year by the first guy who I dated in high school and even planned marrige with. The second one just wanted me for my body. I didn't have sex with him tho and I'm happy I didn't. Happy I didn't give up something someone who didn't care about me wanted. But I'm still not loosing confidence. I do feel down about it sometimes. Tho I never feel like I'll never find someone ever. I beleive I will. Being in a relationship is an awsome thing. I'd love to find a guy who likes me for me and who cares about me and not sex only. Just be patient and confident like me. Well try to be atleast.
You will find someone worth your time one day, so please do not lose hope. If someone as unattractive and pathetic as me can find a wonderful, loving partner, I think anyone can.
its been about 5 months since my last relationship and its been hard ...
Its kind of difficult because he dosent want me to leave, but he dosent want to be with me either, he wants friends with benefits ...
ive never really done that before, i dont know how i would feel about that ... has anyone ever gone through that before???
I really want a relationship though and i want it to be with him ...
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although different to your story, i fucked up my relationship... although she cheated on me and is with that guy now... I was depressed for a months and caused arguments between me and her, which caused the break up... but i guess the cheating had an influence in it aswell...
But, I guess maybe they aint the people you are supposed to be with... although i did love her like no-one else and still do have alot of feelings for her.. maybe it is supposed to happen... like fate... maybe someone better comes along?
Love is just shit