Adding Reply Archived Topic: It will not be bumped to the top of the forum. Topic Bipolar Issues Membername   Not a member? Sign Up Free (takes 20 seconds) Password   Forgotten your password? Post Font: Verdana Arial Black Georgia Comic Sans Impact   Size: Tiny Normal Big Huge   Color: Default Dark Red Red Orange Brown Green Olive Cyan Blue Dark Blue Indigo Black [ Check Spelling ] [ Post Preview ] [ LiveTags ] FAQ Keyword Search: Post Options Favorites Manager Notify me of new replies to this topic by email Notify me of new replies to this topic by private message Original Post mattseanbachman Posted at 12:45 pm on Jan. 3, 2007 Hey, I just thought I'd come here and see what advice I get: I have bipolar disorder, and it's nearly ruined my life.  Well, it has ruined my life...but luckily two teams of ER doctors pieced me back together. I've tried suicide twice...and wound up in a psych. ward once.  Don't worry, I won't try that again.  If anyone wants to hear from someone who was an inch away from death, who felt the peace of eternal rest fall upon them, and subsequently woke up from it...it's NOT worth it.   Anyways, coming back from that's been hard.  Real hard.  I go to a community college now, one semester away from graduating and going on to study communications at a state school.   My problem is just getting through some of these days...I started hanging out with friends again, talking to people, working out (rec. boxing, stuff like that)...but sometimes I don't know if I can go on with it all.   Now I'm facing a new semester in a week, and I need some money, so I need to get a job.  You all ever get that feeling that something just isn't right? I mean in the pit of your soul, something about the future just leaves you feeling vulnerable and weak? I still get that sometimes; I just want to hear about how y'all deal. -MSB

Replies kka Posted at 12:48 pm on Jan. 29, 2007 WAKE UP!!!!!!!!!!! just get over it. if u are down then people around you will be down. i am a manic depressent and i just hide my worries and concentrate on what good things i have. runnergirl Posted at 5:31 pm on Jan. 10, 2007 Hey, I can relate to what you are going through.  I am a college senior now, about to graduate in one semester.  My junior year of college I had a terrifying psychotic episode that made me feel suicidal and highly anxious and landed me in a psych hospital.  It was caused by overwhelming stress in my life.  I went from being a normal, happy student on a varsity team to wondering if I would have a future after all.  It took me almost a year to feel normal again and get my life back.  What saved me is having friends that cared about me.  In addition to horrible side effects from the antipsychotics they had me take(luckily I am off this now and just on an antidepressant) I also had to deal with the uncertainty of my future- would I recover and be able to graduate with my class?  I struggled with two classes while I was still feeling ill and am taking extra classes each semester to catch up.  Luckily I did get better and now my life is back on track.  I hope you continue on and don't give up even when life gets out of control.  To deal with my anxiety disorder I run and exercise on a regular basis.  Exercise helps me a lot, as well as having supportive friends.  Good luck, and hope you feel better. MsCaesi Posted at 9:50 pm on Jan. 9, 2007 I've been to that same point. Nothing is ever good enough and you feel like nothing will ever change. I've been so low that I didn't want to go on. I've never attempted suicide but I've been so depressed that I would lay in bed and just cry. It turns out that my depression was just caused by stress and now that I have lifted some of those things that were weighing down on me I feel so much better. I smile almost all the time now and I feel great about myself. My best advice for you is to surround yourself with people that care about you, that want to help you out of your depression. Find new hobbies ( I began keeping a journal of what was bothering me) and exercise more. I started going to the gym at least 5 times a week. Exercising releases natural endorphins that make us feel good. I hope this helps and I pray that you get the strength to overcome your pain! mattseanbachman Posted at 6:34 pm on Jan. 6, 2007 Haha, thanks I guess.  I do feel a bit slighted by everyone, considering I'm posting in a forum about these sorts of issues, and everyone is just saying "wow, it must have been bad." Of course it was fucking bad, everyone's life is a little bit shitty now and then.  I just had a whole go around in two years, the kind of sort that most people get over, say, fifty.   I don't give a fuck, to tell you all the truth.  You've got to be who you are, and if people think that it's bad, or sad, then they think that. -MSB IMPULSE Posted at 4:09 pm on Jan. 4, 2007 Wow....it's so sad.....I hope you get your life back lilac Posted at 7:41 pm on Jan. 3, 2007 Hmm. Well I never been bipolar before so I wouldn't know what thats like obviously. But ya, every now and then I do feel something might not be right about the future. I mean, course I'm not exactly sure what could go wrong. But in any case everyone's going to have something go wrong at some point in life if not already. I dun think it's anything to really stress about. kmuss Posted at 12:49 pm on Jan. 3, 2007 hey good luck w/ getting ur life back but ive nvr done anythig like that b4 so... mattseanbachman Posted at 12:48 pm on Jan. 3, 2007 Post from this position was omitted due to content violations Etnies007 Posted at 12:46 pm on Jan. 3, 2007 Post from this position was omitted due to content violations Etnies007 Posted at 12:46 pm on Jan. 3, 2007 Post from this position was omitted due to content violations All 10 previous replies displayed.