I was madly in love with this boy, but he got caught up with the drug and party scene. I've always had a good head on my shoulders so I broke up with him....but he brought out the best in me. I'm glad I got out of it before anything bad happened, but I'm sad because I can't imagine anyone else making me happy like that.
On top of that, I got transferred to a different location at work for a higher position. While I should be estatic, all of my good friends live far away from me. I've become an outsider to their lives. I mean, I'm making friends but I don't feel comfortable opening up to them.
I don't know what to do. On the outside I am the smart, easy-going person, but on the inside I'm just screaming. I want to cry but I can't make myself come to it. I know I don't want to kill myself...its completely out of the question...I'm too smart for that...and to waste such a life would be ridiculous. I just don't know. Any help? I mean one week I'll be completely fine, but then I go into this rut where its just crazy.
What can I do?
as for your friends, if they are not there through thick and thin, then they are not completely true - dont cut them off, but soon enough the new friends you are making will become part of your life.
its a new chapter - it may seem hard, but you know yourself that you are a smart girl - you know what to do. go ahead, cry, scream, run - let it out. but get back on it, tommorow is a new day.
peace
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