That's what I hate about being able to drive. I'm the girl people turn to when they need a ride and I hate disappointing people. When I do, they get mad and/or then choose to avoid me thinking that it's pointless to ask me to do anything with them or for them or whatever.
If I didn't have a car, no one would ask, no one would get mad, and no one would feel disappointed and I wouldn't feel pressured.
But here I am...feeling guilty because I let my roommate and her friend Jack down... And now I'm anxious that she'll start to exclude me and/or is upset with me. I couldn't help it, though, I was just so tired, there's no way I would have made it past midnight. Shit, I think people were still up at 3:00 and I was bushed!
I even feel weird that she left to go to some meeting and may or may not be back tonight. I don't even know where she's going or if I could have gone and it just sort of makes me feel bad, like it's starting, like she's going to start leaving me behind.
I feel so awkward...
sounds like she's manipulating and using you. why would you be upset if she shafted you from her plans?
I don't know if she did or not. First she's meeting with some people for something related to her Physics class and then she's going to some "lock in" thing that may or may not be for her gay club. I guess all I can do is wait and see if she starts excluding me or not.
I guess all I can do is wait and see if she starts excluding me or not.
Aw, I do that with my best friend. I try not to pressure here into giving me and my boyfriend rides, and brush off the disappointment when she can't.
I explained to her that I was just tired and she said, "I understand." and then we watched a few episodes of Buffy together but I still feel anxious... I'm just so used to people being assholes with me that I'm trying to figure out if she's going to be one or not.
Hello, she is just using you for a ride.
She's really nice, though. We watch movies together and her friend gave me a ride a day or two ago and then we went to see The Rocky Horror Picture Show on campus together and she's bought me food a few times. We talk a lot, too, so I don't get that vibe...
I was tired
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