Adding Reply Archived Topic: It will not be bumped to the top of the forum. Topic I am such a fucking asshole Membername   Not a member? Sign Up Free (takes 20 seconds) Password   Forgotten your password? Post Font: Verdana Arial Black Georgia Comic Sans Impact   Size: Tiny Normal Big Huge   Color: Default Dark Red Red Orange Brown Green Olive Cyan Blue Dark Blue Indigo Black [ Check Spelling ] [ Post Preview ] [ LiveTags ] FAQ Keyword Search: Post Options Favorites Manager Notify me of new replies to this topic by email Notify me of new replies to this topic by private message Original Post Anonymous Posted at 3:25 am on Sep. 19, 2008 I sid to myself last night that I would have no problems killing myself if it didnt let everyone else down. I looked in the mirror before I went to bed and just looked at myself. I looked at my muscles and how hard I worked to get them that toned. How Im not a big guy and yet in my platoon Im one of the strongest in it. How empty I am inside, where is my personality.... Last night I started hitting on a girl, she was 19 and pretty. It was absolutely terrible because talkign to her I noticed a ring on wedding finger. She was married, I asked her. And everyone else knew it and knew what I was doign and watching, because my friends and her friends are friends. I am such an asshole. Not only that, this american girl, who over the last couple of days has been really mean and putting me down. Shes a roomate of the girl I was hitting on. Pretty much everyone else hates this american girl, but she chooses to like them. She fucking hates me for some unkown reason. I am such a dick. Why me? EDIT: I was drunk last night.

Replies haysues Posted at 6:40 pm on Sep. 20, 2008 Quote: from fouad at 5:02 am on Sep. 19, 2008 Quote: from haysues at 1:29 pm on Sep. 19, 2008 americans suck. but arent u one? yes i am. so i would know first-hand. x Janelle x Posted at 10:08 am on Sep. 19, 2008 dont kill urself! Al Legator Posted at 5:10 am on Sep. 19, 2008 Quote: from effyouseakay at 3:36 am on Sep. 19, 2008 Talk to someone you really trust about how you feel. Don't let your emotions bottle up it'll only get worse. I agree- the strength of the negative emotions you are feeling right now are dangerous to you and maybe others. As for hitting on a married woman, I did it once and it fortunately went no-where. I felt like crap too. I was also drunk and so was she.We both realised that where we were headed was wrong. You, the morning after, realise you were wrong. Learn from it-beating yourself up won't accomplish anything except reinforcing those negative emotions that you need to get a handle on. I'm sure that the armed force you are with has counsellors to talk to and can guide you to understandings and plans to help you get some meaning in your life. You wouldn't - I presume - define yourself as a jerk but you acted like one in the past. Change that, with help, and you'll be able to slowly become a person you can be proud of. Fouad Posted at 5:02 am on Sep. 19, 2008 Quote: from haysues at 1:29 pm on Sep. 19, 2008 americans suck. but arent u one? La Motta Posted at 4:14 am on Sep. 19, 2008 Why did you think about killing yourself? Jadien Posted at 3:54 am on Sep. 19, 2008 You just need somebody you can trust to talk to. If you want to PM me, I'd really like to get to know you. You sound like a sweet guy who doesn't deserve the mistreatment. effyouseakay Posted at 3:36 am on Sep. 19, 2008 Talk to someone you really trust about how you feel. Don't let your emotions bottle up it'll only get worse. LEONIDOS Posted at 3:31 am on Sep. 19, 2008 it happens get over it Anonymous Posted at 3:30 am on Sep. 19, 2008 Quote: from jzbaby at 11:26 am on Sep. 19, 2008 What happened to that Italian girl? havent seen her lately. edit: havent talked to her in a week. haysues Posted at 3:29 am on Sep. 19, 2008 americans suck. Aqueous Posted at 3:26 am on Sep. 19, 2008 What happened to that Italian girl? All 11 previous replies displayed.