I have to work on me being happy without leaning on anyone else. Without counting on anyone else. and until then, I'll never truly be happy.

It's taken a lot on broken hearts and tears to get to where I am right now, but I'm damn glad I am. I know what I need to be glad, because I've never ever in my life truly been happy. Ever. I don't know what true happiness is.

I know what I deserve and now I just need to start showing the world that.

Amen.

[/end epiphany rant]