In short, I've had very little contact with my boyfriend who is on the opposite coast. I feel like I'm going to start bawling, I'm about thisclose to having a panic attack because I can't seem to work things out so that I'll have time to talk to him or even go home in two or three weeks. I need him and miss him very much, he's my best friend, the best friend I've ever had, and is always there for me. But the time difference and my classes just seem to be taking up a lot of time and I haven't even gotten a job yet. Thankfully, Dad said my school work is more important than getting a job and that even though I was given $2,400 in work study, if I can't handle it, I don't have to do it. I'm just such an anxious person (I have an anxiety disorder, depression, and OCD like habits)  that getting a job might be entirely too much, honestly. I get riled up way too easily and I can't afford to let my grades drop. If I can keep them up, that's another $6,000 I get next year anyways. And the classes I have will be the most challenging I've had thus far. I feel so far behind the other students, they have more experience than I do...that stresses me out, too, I feel so out of place...