I like my friends but they just seem like they are just aquantances; someone to talk to. We're close, but nowhere near "will you be a bridesmaid at my wedding close?" And that makes me feel quilty too just the fact we'll never be as close as my friends I had growing up.  I'm actually not homesick. When at home during the summer, I realize this is my time to work at my job so my workschedule is filled because I have to make my money for the year in a three month period. So I don't see my friends that much, but I know they're there.

I've never really liked school. I'm doing well with my grades now but school just doesn't come to me. I have to study way more than other people have to. And it's very stressful. I get really bad test anxiety.

But the main reason I don't like college is because I don't get to work at a job. I should rephrase that; a career. If there was a magic button that allowed me to switch from college to a career I would push that button. And I'm talking a solid career, not flipping burgers at a fast food chaing (no offense). I'm a very work oriented person and have been quite successful. I have started my own business, (even though I got out of it since I'm making more money at my current job) I'm 20 and I already have an retire account set up, and I've got pretty good financial smarts (ex. knowing to put money in a CD compounded semiannually at 4.5% interest rather than a standard savings account with 1% interest. This is a safer bet than investing in the stock market too.)

When I'm working, I'm happy. My parents don't want me to get a job at college since they say college is my job and because I'm an athlete already balancing schoolwork with sports committments, I think I'm going to have to get a job. Psychologically, I can't stand the fact of going 9 months without bringing in any income.  Work does not control my life, but I need then sense that I am accomplishing something. Yes, I am on athletic scholarship so I don't have to pay for college. But I see this as a main advantage to get ahead of the world. Strange thing is that I'm not materialistic, I basically save everything I earn and don't blow my paychecks, but with inflation rates well over the typicall 5% per year, this is my chance to help my financial standing while my life isn't terribly impacted by other events.