I feel like going back to the hospital I can't fucking do it to sick and out of it to take care of myself. All the chest and joint pain make me want to take drugs just to help with the pain and take my mind off it but I don't have any now. The hospital the only place, and I can't damn take it anymore. I take fucking 3-5 baths a day just to get help with the joint pain. I need a damn nurse or somebody to take care of me because I can't do it anymore. I feel like asking my mom take me back to the hospital. But I am not sure.
I asked her to take me to the hospital. My mom works nights its impossible for her