Usually when I'm angry, whether at someone, something or nothing at all I'll walk away and go do something else. I look pissed off and that pisses them off so they confront me. This never fails. Even my managers, who know that I was diagnosed. They'll huff and puff about how I'm pissy and demand to know why. Heaven forbid I say "I'm not angry for any particular reason. I just am." They always respond that I should just get over it.

Sorry, it's not that easy. I can click it on but I can't click off. It's like when a candidate for my new therapist told me to "Just be happy!" (And I made it a point to not show up next time I was scheduled)

So usually I will tell them when I'm angry and that they need to back off. No go, they just mock me. All the time. ALL THE EFFIN TIME and it just makes me more and more angry. So I can't get away from them, and I can't deal with them and I'm at the end of my rope.

I know that people mirror other people. So when I'm upset they're going to naturally react in a less then positive way. But I would appreciate it if they would stop and leave me the hell alone. I've been through enough, I would just like to learn to deal with this and they're making it that much worse. In fact, my co-worker whom I'm normally friends with said to me today "I live to make you angry."

AND THEN my other co-worker is always making racist jokes against me. Or saying something retarded like "America isn't ready for Obama. He should go back to Africa." Or my manager who is always making lewd comments about me or my mother.

God damn, I have a line and they keep crossing it. I can't wait to leave the states. Only two or three more weeks and I'm gone. I don't care if I leave the states without any money in my pocket. I'm not staying longer then I have to.

/rant