He thinks I'm judging them unfairly. I'm judging them?!?!? They've fucking called me names and treated me like shit without ever having even met me and I'm judging them! You gotta be fucking kidding me.

And you know what else? He just writes anything they say off. He comes up with excuse after excuse after excuse but he thinks I have no right to be upset or wary. He won't write anything I say off, he holds me to it and basically tells me I'm being silly.

My Dad did the same fucking thing to my Mom and I won't put up with it the rest of my life. And of course, my boyfriend has something to say about that, too. Apparently, by threatening to leave if things don't improve not only in our relationship but with his family as well, I'm "devaluing" our relationship even though the jerk broke up with me twice and admits he did the same thing. What a fucking hypocrite.

I'm just so pissed off right now and have been feeling less and less in love for over a week a this point. Some part of me thinks that we could be nearing the end and if I don't feel better after I visit him, I'm done. He wants me to hold on and keeps saying that by leaving, I'm basically saying he doesn't matter and neither does our relationship but I'm a human being, not a goddamn dog. I'm not going to kiss his family's ass and eat shit the rest of my life just so I can say, "Well, I value our relationship..." There's only so much one person can take, goddamn.