Adding Reply Archived Topic: It will not be bumped to the top of the forum. Topic eating disorder? Membername   Not a member? Sign Up Free (takes 20 seconds) Password   Forgotten your password? Post Font: Verdana Arial Black Georgia Comic Sans Impact   Size: Tiny Normal Big Huge   Color: Default Dark Red Red Orange Brown Green Olive Cyan Blue Dark Blue Indigo Black [ Check Spelling ] [ Post Preview ] [ LiveTags ] FAQ Keyword Search: Post Options Favorites Manager Notify me of new replies to this topic by email Notify me of new replies to this topic by private message Original Post Anonymous Posted at 12:12 pm on July 11, 2008 i'm physically overweight, and i've always been really self concious about it. and it feels like i have binge eating disorder and anorexia. i always crave food when i'm upset, even if i'm not hungry, and every time i eat, whether i'm upset or not, i literally cannot stop until there's none left or somebody says something. it's like unleashing the beast. before, i'll think "okay, just one cookie" and then once i start it keeps going "one more" "one more" "one more" until i've eaten half a box. so i try not to even start now. i don't even feel hungry anymore. no matter how much i try to control myself, i can't resist that second helping of potatoes, or just one more scoop of icecream. so i skip meals a lot and when i have to eat i put very little food on my plate and try to distract myself so i'm not even thinking about eating. and every time after i eat i feel sick. and then no matter how much i eat or what i eat i always purge it. if i don't, i feel guilty and fat and ugly. but if i do, all i can think about is how it's so worth it, because i'll see the number on the scale finally go down. it feels good because it's the only thing in my life i have control over. my parents dictate everything else. and i just keep thinking about how skinny and beautiful i could be. but no matter what i can't motivate myself to STOP once i start eating. help?

Replies devilindisguize Posted at 2:56 am on July 12, 2008 be careful. you easily fit the diagnostic criteria for ednos, and youre going down the exact path my eating disorder took. I used to binge every day, on anything, it didnt matter what. I'd eat until I couldnt eat anymore. So after a while I started purging, which always made me feel less guilty. I'd skip meals to avoid binging, I'd do exactly what you do now. Its been 7 years and I'm still doing all of that. I still binge. I still purge. And I still starve at times. And I'm not any thinner for any of it. I've just lost and gained the same 15lbs for 7 years. Please try to get help now, before it gets any worse. SammySunshine Posted at 12:21 pm on July 11, 2008 Don't worry, there are lots of people who feel the same way. I've been off school for 2 months, and don't go back until September. I'm left in the house alone most days, so I get bored and raid the cupboards. It's just a matter of self-control in my case, but the way you've described how you're feeling, it's slightly different. Try eating smaller portions, but not so drastic that you barely have anything on your plate. Don't snack between meals, and only 3 meals a day. I know you've probably heard this all before, but it's really the best option. Find a different way to relieve stress: art, sports, reading, there are many things you can do. BabiGurlForevva Posted at 12:20 pm on July 11, 2008 Quote: from bengali at 12:16 pm on July 11, 2008 eat lots of low calorie foods?  drink LOTS of water to keepp ur stummik busy..   get a job, go running, excercise, keep yourself physically busy..   stop thinking about other skinny girls..   no, ur not ugly.. get over that willpower..   dont allow cookies and other fatty foods in the house?. be healthier, and try to reduce ur portion size.. when u get stressed, find other ways of relieving it..   good luck easy for some to say. i know im not ugly..but i feel it and its sad..=[ my boyfriend thinks the world of me...and i dont wanna become an anorexic because i think im fat BabiGurlForevva Posted at 12:17 pm on July 11, 2008 i just wish there was a way to loose my "pregnant look so i dont hve to wer baggy shirts and suck it in all the time...=[ crazy4you Posted at 12:17 pm on July 11, 2008 I have the same problem... I'm not sure if it's really a disorder or more of a habit. Try to keep yourself busy and let your family know that you want to stop eating so much. bengali Posted at 12:16 pm on July 11, 2008 eat lots of low calorie foods?  drink LOTS of water to keepp ur stummik busy.. get a job, go running, excercise, keep yourself physically busy.. stop thinking about other skinny girls.. no, ur not ugly.. get over that willpower.. dont allow cookies and other fatty foods in the house?. be healthier, and try to reduce ur portion size.. when u get stressed, find other ways of relieving it.. good luck Tarebear4tina Posted at 12:16 pm on July 11, 2008 wow, i didn't expect to read all that, but i just gotta tell u that u only see one side of this.. You really do not understand how fucked up and damaged you will be afterwards. Your mind will just be like your worst enemy that you hate and can never win against. I know you wanna get down to that # but honestly working out makes you feel good about yourself, less hungry, and more energized...Its really hard, but you will be sooo much happier i guarantee BabiGurlForevva Posted at 12:16 pm on July 11, 2008 omg i feel the same way...except  dont binge...or purge..but i look pregnant and being in high school, and having a great boyfriend, who sais im not fat but i think i do..im not prega=nant but still i could be skinnier.. firsttolastx69 Posted at 12:16 pm on July 11, 2008 you have to eat i have dealt and still deal with them and you really odnt want to stop now before it goes to far or else it wil be a long hard road All 9 previous replies displayed.