Adding Reply Archived Topic: It will not be bumped to the top of the forum. Topic i'm fucking stupid. Membername   Not a member? Sign Up Free (takes 20 seconds) Password   Forgotten your password? Post Font: Verdana Arial Black Georgia Comic Sans Impact   Size: Tiny Normal Big Huge   Color: Default Dark Red Red Orange Brown Green Olive Cyan Blue Dark Blue Indigo Black [ Check Spelling ] [ Post Preview ] [ LiveTags ] FAQ Keyword Search: Post Options Favorites Manager Notify me of new replies to this topic by email Notify me of new replies to this topic by private message Original Post Anonymous Posted at 5:08 pm on Dec. 22, 2008 i didn't eat breakfast yesterday, nor lunch, nor dinner.  today i did not eat breakfast, again, nor lunch... at school i was feeling incredibly dizzy, and at one point i feel down because everything started spinning and i couldn't keep my head up and my eyes open, so i just... everythign went black for a few seconds and then i jsut pretended i was fine again.   this isn't the first time this has happened, but i still am so disgusted with how i look that i won't stop doing what i do.  i don't deprive myself as much, but i'm still hurting myself.  i know what i'm doing is something that i shouldn't do, but i cna't stop, the thought of stopping scares me to death, and i'm scared of what i am, what i have become, and what is wrong with me.   all i want is to love myself, but instead i am hurting myself but i can't stop it.   i wasn't going ot make this anon, but i don't want certain people to know that this is who it is, because i don't want to be lectured and preached at from said people.

Replies pagie 1 Posted at 5:18 pm on Dec. 22, 2008 Quote: from jennamae1988 at 5:12 pm on Dec. 22, 2008 I battle with eating every day. Try to eat at least one meal and maybe exercise every night if need be. Anonymous Posted at 5:17 pm on Dec. 22, 2008 Quote: from Zetsuai at 8:16 pm on Dec. 22, 2008 Maybe you should see a doctor. An eating disorder isn't always something you can overcome yourself. i wouldn't say i have an eating disorder, though, at the point it is at now, i'd just call it an... eating problem... Zetsuai Posted at 5:16 pm on Dec. 22, 2008 Maybe you should see a doctor. An eating disorder isn't always something you can overcome yourself. NimseyScissorFace Posted at 5:15 pm on Dec. 22, 2008 you should see a doctor Anonymous Posted at 5:14 pm on Dec. 22, 2008 Quote: from mike19801 at 8:12 pm on Dec. 22, 2008 Quote: from Fucking Hostile at 5:12 pm on Dec. 22, 2008 Quote: from Anonymous at 5:09 pm on Dec. 22, 2008 Quote: from Omtamazing at 8:08 pm on Dec. 22, 2008 Eat   i eat enough to...live... obviously. eat MORE. ^^ this I have tried, but that's just it... it's so simple what i need to do, but my mind won't let me... or i won't let myself... it's not that i can't, it's that in my head i WON'T let myself.  i physically get sick when i eat, and i'm convinced that it's just in my head too.   mike19801 Posted at 5:12 pm on Dec. 22, 2008 Quote: from Fucking Hostile at 5:12 pm on Dec. 22, 2008 Quote: from Anonymous at 5:09 pm on Dec. 22, 2008 Quote: from Omtamazing at 8:08 pm on Dec. 22, 2008 Eat    i eat enough to...live... obviously. eat MORE. ^^ this xRagsx Posted at 5:12 pm on Dec. 22, 2008 Quote: from NimseyScissorFace at 5:11 pm on Dec. 22, 2008 attention seeker, im not giving you sympathy They'd be seeking attention if they weren't anon. Shove it, asshole. Anonymous Posted at 5:12 pm on Dec. 22, 2008 Quote: from NimseyScissorFace at 8:11 pm on Dec. 22, 2008 attention seeker, im not giving you sympathy i don't want sympathy, as i said before, i know what i am doing is stupid, and i hate it... i don't know what i want, to be honest.  mostly, i just needed to say what i did say... but sympathy is the last thing i want, because it makes it seem ok that i do this to myself... and it's not ok, it's stupid, and now it's out of control. Fucking Hostile Posted at 5:12 pm on Dec. 22, 2008 Quote: from Anonymous at 5:09 pm on Dec. 22, 2008 Quote: from Omtamazing at 8:08 pm on Dec. 22, 2008 Eat i eat enough to...live... obviously. eat MORE. jennamae1988 Posted at 5:12 pm on Dec. 22, 2008 I battle with eating every day.  Try to eat at least one meal and maybe exercise every night if need be. Rebecca1422 Posted at 5:12 pm on Dec. 22, 2008 just eat some food itll stop u passing out NimseyScissorFace Posted at 5:11 pm on Dec. 22, 2008 attention seeker, im not giving you sympathy Tubbz Posted at 5:10 pm on Dec. 22, 2008 Stupid sounds about right xRagsx Posted at 5:09 pm on Dec. 22, 2008 I've been anorexic for the past three years. If you ever need anything, or if you ever need to talk, message me. Anonymous Posted at 5:09 pm on Dec. 22, 2008 Quote: from Omtamazing at 8:08 pm on Dec. 22, 2008 Eat i eat enough to...live... Most recent 15 of 16 previous replies displayed.