Adding Reply Archived Topic: It will not be bumped to the top of the forum. Topic I feel so empty right now Membername   Not a member? Sign Up Free (takes 20 seconds) Password   Forgotten your password? Post Font: Verdana Arial Black Georgia Comic Sans Impact   Size: Tiny Normal Big Huge   Color: Default Dark Red Red Orange Brown Green Olive Cyan Blue Dark Blue Indigo Black [ Check Spelling ] [ Post Preview ] [ LiveTags ] FAQ Keyword Search: Post Options Favorites Manager Notify me of new replies to this topic by email Notify me of new replies to this topic by private message Original Post workingatperfekt Posted at 12:35 pm on May 4, 2012 This song describes my mood so perfectly right now.   God, I just want him back so bad. I've been doing so good, I've been so happy, i moved on. And now I'm right back where I was 10 months ago.   I mean, even after everything he's done... cheated on me, may be having a kid, lying to me. I still want him to be here. I just want him to talk to me again. He doesn't have to love me, or date me, or anything. I just want him in my life. i want to see him, hear his voice. I just miss him. I feel empty without him. I was sitting in class, not even thinking about him, and all of a sudden the reality of it all hit me. He doesn't need me, he doesn't want me. For 4 years we've dated on and off, but he's always been my friend. Always. And now... he won't even talk to me. For no apparent reason. I don't know what to do....

Replies workingatperfekt Posted at 7:42 pm on May 4, 2012 Quote: from anthonykorsen007 at 9:57 pm on May 4, 2012 What do you mean by "the way things have always been"? This was when things were good, before he lied and cheated? Because I think you might just be lying to yourself. If he did that kind of shit, then he sounds like he's just being manipulative, especially if he can tell that you still want him around. That gives him the upper hand. This all sounds terrible, but you need to stay away. Don't let him know that you're still interested because he might just be playing you. It's totally possible, by the way, to not let common friends get in the way. The fact that they serve as "reminders" proves, in my opinion, that you're not over him and still want to be more than friends. To be fair, we both lied some. We've always been that way. And i mean I guess yes, before I KNEW he cheated. That was in september. We broke up in january, have tried to stay close though (he was the first to call after not talking fro a week after breaking up), and i just recently found out he cheated. Idk its all just so fucked up. As much as he's hurt me, I've probably hurt him more, but more with the things i've said, not done. As shitty as it seems that i know this, when he's trying to fuck me, he acts all sweet with me, then picks a fight with me and tells me he hates me. He doesnt just ignore me. And they're not exactly common friends. It's his best friend (who i slept with in january when we broke up. told you, fucked. up. he didnt even care), his older brother, his cousin and his roommate. Those are 4 of my best friends. His family. ughh i dont know.. maybe i'm just scared to not have him around after 4 years. but if there's one thing i know about him, its that if he really didn't care about me, he'd tell me because he knows itd break my heart. anthonykorsen007 Posted at 6:57 pm on May 4, 2012 What do you mean by "the way things have always been"? This was when things were good, before he lied and cheated? Because I think you might just be lying to yourself. If he did that kind of shit, then he sounds like he's just being manipulative, especially if he can tell that you still want him around. That gives him the upper hand. This all sounds terrible, but you need to stay away. Don't let him know that you're still interested because he might just be playing you. It's totally possible, by the way, to not let common friends get in the way. The fact that they serve as "reminders" proves, in my opinion, that you're not over him and still want to be more than friends. workingatperfekt Posted at 2:07 pm on May 4, 2012 i know i should just forget about him and get over it, but I can't. that not what we do. We fight, we don't talk for a day, and then we go back to the way things have always been. But it's been like 3 weeks. And i don't know WHY he won't talk to me. I didn't do anything. Maybe he feels guilty because I just found out he cheated on me, or something. But that's not like him at all. And about hanging out with friends more, I have been, but there's only one problem. Literally all of my current friends that still live around here I met through him, so it's like a constant reminder workingatperfekt Posted at 2:00 pm on May 4, 2012 Quote: from Music2Live at 4:57 pm on May 4, 2012 How did you post the video?... It just showed me my playlist history...WTH... And honestly, I just recently lost a friend too, and it sucks. Hopefully things will start looking up for you soon. Oh, I think I posted it from my history playlist. It should be right now Music2Live Posted at 1:57 pm on May 4, 2012 How did you post the video?... It just showed me my playlist history...WTH...   And honestly, I just recently lost a friend too, and it sucks. Hopefully things will start looking up for you soon. anthonykorsen007 Posted at 1:41 pm on May 4, 2012 HOLY FUCKBALLS THAT'S MY COUSIN'S SONG. Also, that's me under the lion head. I have another picture from that same "game" in my IB. I can't believe I'm seeing this on LW. Sorry, anyway... I think you should probably be trying to do more with friends, or otherwise something to get your mind off him and on to other things. I had a hard time getting over someone in the past, but I decided it would be best to just distance myself because I was afraid of past feelings getting in the way of just being around each other. Since it sounds like you're not completely over him, it might be better to just stay away. It's hard, but it will most likely only lead to more awkwardness. doozerlistens Posted at 1:31 pm on May 4, 2012 hey workingatperfekt.  I'm sorry to her that you are feeling so down.  If you ever want to talk to someone about it feel free to message me. All 7 previous replies displayed.